Liana

2012-02-27T23:31:00.007+08:00

" Because you dont know the feel when you lost your mum. "

Surat ITE sudah saaaaaampai. and and school fees, around $200. so, maybe i asked dad for $300? campur uniform sekali? April intake people. facility. insyallah wont be tough. and registering will be 15 march. if i knew the fees $200 plus i wouldnt stop working at BK. could help up with dad. hmm, im sorry daddy. tskk tskk. Keerah asked me to fetch her one of these days. pasal kawan kawan dia masing masing ada orang nak fetch, tapi dia sorang saje takde. tak apa, soon will fetch her at her school which is at CCK. keep myself busy with jog and sit-ups. and alhamdulilah i've been cutting down cigg. UNFORTUNATELY, small bro started to smoke and guess what? menyusah kan orang suruh beli kan die rokok. lucky lepas i bought ciggs at loyang point 7-11. irritating, nak isap rokok menyusah kan orang! pfft. he sport man more to activites like hockey, working and yet he smoke. stupid. tak apa la, sec3. i used to be like that also -.- between me and bf, was okay. same story ade jugak gaduhan. Rasul just texted me, tanye bila nak pergi karaoke since he going to NS. and Keerah invite me karaoke also with Fandi, this weekend at grandlink? time place tak confirm yet. wah, ade jugak nak pergi karaoke. tak boring aku ni. muahaha. went for Broadrick Sec with Jinyan, Neil and Hanani. they told me they need to send something which im not sure what is it. Jinyan wanted me to accompany, so yeah, i went with them la since i've nothing to do at home. sigh. went there on friday i think? i guess so. no longer active in facebook. went for Mr Teh Tarik today at afgan, i saw Zico and Firdaus. was like thinking why the hell i've been bumping with Firdaus lately? yes, i miss everyone. :') pfft. and yeah, i know i dont have a mum. step-mother i have but, that doesnt mean growing up without a mum gonna be rebel? i mean, teenagers these days. they just wanna have fun right? go out. spent time with friends? yeah, i dont drink i dont club i dont drugs. so, fuck you makcik for thinking that im gonna be rebel growing up without mother. what? i still have dad, step-mum, 6 of mine brothers, 2 sisters. what to do with me NOW in life, have got nothing to do with my MUM. stupid makcik. makcik tak makcik braah, mother punye pasal noh. benci ah orang orang gini. aku nak tweet ah tweet!

" I'm a bad daughter, i will spent time with my Daddy. "

2012-02-21T22:38:00.003+08:00

" Dont stare, cos that makes me feel like im a freak. "

Such a long time. well, recently I met Keerah. On Saturday i guess? i forgot. Supposely our plan on that day was looking for jobs, but end up we slacking at her cribs. Nice day with her. Meet me again, will you Kee Keerah? MEEEOWW! haha. oh yeah, happy 11 monthsery to us. I love you. You love me. Today went to meet bf at his home. did nothing just watch tv and all. after that, accompanying him to sell his phone at Geylang. Yup, he brought that phone for $100 something but he got $40 for selling that phone -.- sungguh rugi. but nevermind, Rezeki la kan. tak boleh tolak.

and than, we go play lan at grandlink. we played CS all the way for two hours. Amaciam? mane nak carik couple celebrate monthsery ke ann kat computer? hahah. cute ah kite, asyik nak aim each other je sape mati dulu. kwangkwangkwang. so dah. home. Fyye messaged me, she wanna appeal for another course. die buat aku seram ah bros. Facility macam susah je. tskk! she asked me to teman her to ITE Simei, i was like fuck yes finally i get to meet her, BUT! she reply lambat than she told me she going with her sister. spoil. takpe la, kenangan. tskk! kk, Fyye kalau kau dapat Beauty and Wellness, memang aku hate kau many many ah! :(

and oh, happy birthday to Shukor Zainal. happy legal, ji. meet ups with Keerah done. Fyye, Jinyan, Ardilah and more when is fucking your turn? pfft. going to March, yet IM JOBLESS. fuck ah.

" Assholes, dont hate the player
hate the game "

2012-02-15T14:54:00.002+08:00

" Love Interruption "

Life been okay for me. as i've been rot at home. hari menganti hari, waited for the call from every work outlet that vacancy to call me. but yet, i have to try again. as im sick of staying at home finish off rice. grr. perut pun makin besar, but yet im glad that now morning i went for jog and night for skipping and ade lagi satu ni, aku taktau ape name die. haha. so i will call Shop N Save's office later on. And i thought the register of ITE is yesterday and made me kanchiong for nothing. fuck. but lucky there's Jinyan helped me out ask ite simei's office. thank you babe :D about my love, nothing much about us. did fight sometimes. so we get thru it. and that's all. about the girl, end already. well, nothing much to say la yer. Mus, jage la bini kau baik baik ehk. maceh. actually i've nothing to say la. just to keep my blog updating. haha. just a sake of it.

" I want a friendship like Harry Potter,
Hermione and Ron thru thick and
thin together no matter what. "

2012-02-07T01:26:00.003+08:00

" no matter how tough you are, i still can handle you. "

Been fighting over something small which havent end till now. haiyo. and yet, his ex coming back to disturb us. well, i mean not us but kept on bothering me. yes, i can feel she still love him. even if she has Mus. she just broken up with Mus and she wanted back Man. Why now you want him back when actually we are going smooth together, wanna build new life ahead. why now? i dont care how long you been with Man, i dont care what you did with Man. but, i already feel like secure with Man. i already feel like im happy with Man. so, fuck you Papan :D

Well, if you still love someone from your EX lists, than why you try love someone else? i mean like, kau shouldnt be sayang orang lain kalau kau takle lupe ex kau pe. betul? i wanna send that tu Papan, but takut nanti akan jadi hal besar. but serious what, takut takde jodoh pe. it's okay if it takes you a very v v long time to forget someone you love so much, but atleast dont make other person feels like you using them. cheeeey dahliana! macam love guru sia -.- kk.

been so long i didnt updated my blog. im so sorry, readers. but, i dont know la eh kalau masih ade nak bace. right now, im fine. tengah gaduh dengan Man. hmm. i hope it end soon, please. cos im tired fighting with you. hais. and it's already February. still im jobless. fuck that ah. waited for the Arcade to call me, Giodano's office also macam sial, Coffee Bean's interview i lost my way to go there as it's far. Henderson Road -.- all this jobs are from Downtown East. grr. trust me, tomorrow i gonna job hunting at Tampines. but seriously, aku nye otak dah pikir nak masuk balik BK. tapi memandangkan ade satu manager ni aku tak suke, and also manager yang baik aku suke dah tukar kat Downtown, tak jadi la :D

Semalam Ali said to me while he watching Ombak Rindu's covers, he said to me kite nye turn uh try buat cover, asyik tgk dorang je buat cover. i was like so random sia abang aku ni -.- and yes, sape dah dengar lagu Ombak Rindu rock version? lagi sodep pade yang biase nye :D go search.

So, facebook dah tak active lagi as Man tukar password. so yeah. sape sape nak carik aku, kalau ade number, message saje la aku. and for my USS tickets, i already gave to my parents. as they off on Monday, so kasi je la eh. pade buat display je kat dalam wallet aku. hais! tunggu Kee Keerah free, aku pun free, lame jugak oi. haiya. hope my parents have a great time :/ haha. so i have nothing to say else. somehow, Seri added me already at Facebook. check check die belum upload gambar kahwin die pulak -.- but die letak satu je. wah, macam ayuu je eh kau Seri? hahah! till i update again, sucker.

" I may not have pretty face like Taylor Swift,
may not have a chest like Nikki Minaj,
a sexy body shape like Selena Gomez,
a butt like Monobi,
i still want YOU to look at me like NO OTHER."

2012-01-31T23:53:00.002+08:00

Korang ada nampak right mate aku kecik? itu bukan buat buat, kena kencing lipas dah. dah tu takpe, than tembel. fuck them -.- chey! okay, sorry la. for dah lame tak update. and to those yang belum updated lagi, i got Facility at ITE Simei. April Intake. haish! Beauty and Wellness unsucessful, bro. ): tau aku tak letak aku smoking sia -.- haiyo. second choice, Pastry and Baking, baru beranggan nak buat kueh raye! haiyo! Facility aku nak kerje ape sia bile aku dah besar nanti? haiyooooooooooooo! manyak susah. if ni Facility pun aku tolak, than i have to apply for next year kan? so, aku taknak waste one year. my next step is, study hard in Facility than go to Higher Nitec. Insyallah.

Semalam Cun tunggu Man untuk datang amek Cun. than, kite due naik bus pergi rumah Mu'min tuk amek balik IC Cun. lepas tu, Mu'min ajak pergi main pool kat downtown east. tu pun, ramai orang. than, nak main comp lak, pun ramai orang. kite take a chill pill kat downtown east, isap roks and all. terus Mu'min belah. than me and Man, beli makan than off home. semalam balik siang sebab ade cite Night at the Museum. hahahah! <3 and and, susah betul that time kite due laki bini nak date. ade je la ni Min. hahaha! cheey laki bini ehk. whatever sia aku. * rolled eyes 360 degree *

Then tadi, jumpe Man, lagi. datang rumah die, we ate prata for breakfast. yumyumyum! lepas tu, me him and Kak gurl, off to Lavender toke bus 197 off to Kak Su's rumah. her new born baby boy so cute! nanti aku upload gmbr kat sini la yer. korang wait long long. then kite chill chill kat rumah. than, off toke 12 from there at 8pm. then off home. dah gitu, mandi semue, gi central me and Man lepak lepak je kat central. good time spending the day with you, dam dam :D

Nanti akan aku carik kerja di White Sand Shopping, Downtown East dan di Tampines. berdoa la untuk aku ya wahai kawan? hahaha! :D

2012-01-28T01:10:00.002+08:00

was suppose to looking for jobs yesterday but when moon and stars met, what will they do? shine together kan? ah gitu la when i meet with Kirah. instead of finding job, we chill chill story telling. huuuhuuu ^^ around 2 plus, Kirah msg me. jalan jalan satu White Sands Shopping, dah gitu, kite chill chill kat inter. then berbual berbual, then sape nye idea entah nak pergi Karaoke. then ajak kawan semue. semue takle. so we ajak Mu'min. 6:30 jumpe kat grand, sing song sing song. 8 plus i go first as im going to Simpang Bedok makan makan dengan family, brithday adik aku kate kan. stress sak aku prepaid aku low. takle call, takle msg tanye dorang semue duduk meja daerah mane. then home around 11 plus. topup $2. that is when Kak Gurl msg me that Man is not at home. dah malam malam mane entah die pergi. call him many times, he didnt answered. and Kak Gurl said he's at home sleeping. you made me worried for nothing sey pa. tsk! aku rindu kau luuh, Pitbull. ): k bye.

2012-01-26T18:51:00.005+08:00

" Ada yang Kita ingin kan, tak mestinya kita dapat "

Surat NS die sudah sampai :/ holly shit. oh, hello. hi people. im back to update my blog. back on Saturday, since i cant attend Seri's marriage day on Sunday so i decided to visit her on Saturday instead. she doing quite well. long time i didnt meet her since... er, im not sure when the last time i saw her? haha. so, Cun tolong ni, tolong tu. Gerak at 8 plus. apologised to her that Sunday i cant attend as im going to Johor.

So, Sunday went to Johor with Ayah, Ibu, Julie and Boi. nothing much, just makan angin :D after that, on that day itself we go to Along's Johor house. she my auntie la. arwah ibu's side like duh -.- they bought a house at jb fyi. then, me and boi decided to stay awhile, while ayah ibu and julie gone safety home. spent my time at jb with my belove cousins till Tuesday. bought In time, Alvin and the chipmunks 3, The smurfs, Songlap, Datin Ghaira, Al-Hijab, Don 2 and more vcds. but some of it, all kat dorang, so we bawak alek In Time, Alvin and the smurfs. cite In Time aku tak berape paham dey? :/ but then, actually suppose to go home on Wednesday because actually on that tuesday me and boi wanted to go Auntie Rohana's husband's punya mak bapak rumah kat jb. kirekan, husband die cine la. so the parents cine. so, we waited for them to fetch us though. in the end, dorang cakap Along house are far from their house. sob sob ): tak dapat sey aku ang bao. hahahahaahah!

so surat ite dah sampai. course ape entah dorang offer aku kat Ite Yishun. ape entah Semi technology. aku ingat je technology, depan aku taktau. hahaha. tapi aku check kat dorang nye website, kene tgu results keluar on 30 jan? haiyo. kene tinggu lagi la ni. and people, come back ask me again what course am i in on 30 jan k? sape sape la nak tau. I NEED A JOB AH PLEASE.

boi bought ciggerate Sempoerna back from jb. cb, brani beli lak dikni. duit sape entah die cukai. tsk tsk. adik sape je. hahaah. so yesterday, i went to meet Man at his home. i had alot of fun as im missing him so much bile kat jb. fuuuuh. while we eating, we argue about small little things. that makes me kekek rabak. die cakap susah sngt nak berbual dgn org yang pelajaran tinggi. sakit hati la ape la. when i talk to him, the food still inside my mouth, so that is why la die membebel. sebab die tak paham ape aku bbl. hahaha. then he said " kau skola tinggi, baby g kau lak makan tinggi " hahahahah. tibe tibe baby g aku lak keluar -.- aku takde baby g la papa! kau ni. cute kan ni anak. orang tengah makan, baik baik lapar, sekali kenyang lak dengan membebel die -.- <3

" Once in the blue moon. "

2012-01-21T00:30:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 10TH MONTHSERY TO US. Xoxo <3

2012-01-20T22:28:00.001+08:00

" Maafkan aku, kerna selalu melupakan mu Ya Allah. "

went to Ite Simei interview for my Beauty and Wellness yesterday. and i was like shocked early in the morning when i looked at my hair, it's fucking long already. im successful for keeping long natural hair, now i wanna change my style to perm. $25 permed at Sim Avenue fucking not worth it. cos it only took me to enjoy my perm, like one week only? -.- luckily they makan my $25 ONLY sia. cb. job hunting at Downtown later. before that, im meeting Man in the morning first :D eh jap. asal topic macam hilang sikit eh? back to my interview la just now -.- kk, so, the interview was OKAY. nothing much to say. I meet Jinyan and Hanani at Tamp inter, then go with them together. after that, i go to Admin Block. and the girls off to class. they made us to fill up a form at first. and there's one question that they asked us to name them 3 salons or spas we know in Singapore. i was like wtf sia. third question already otak jam. then, message Hanani mintak tolong carik kat internet. HAHAH! lul -.- part tu, aku kekek sendiri yaw kat situ.

then, moved to Beauty and Wellness hub. the trainee asked us to do basic massage. follow on the video they showed. i have no partner then, but i massage the trainee. and the trainess said " wah shoik ah your hand. " then, they gave us a 10 minutes break like wth -.- so the tak perlu, then when we came back, the place was a mess. so they asked us to clear up. lipat the towel and all. at the end of the interview, they tell us what is the meaning of all this massage, clear up and all. they said that they wanna looked at us how KEEN are we to join this course. so yeah. hopefully i get that course. Insyallah. and kite baru interview, beh dah buat kawan -.- tu la aku heran tu bile balik. hahah! so, meet you girls on april saja lor :D after my interview, luckily it was Jinyan's and Hanani's break time. so went to meet them. Syuk messaged me asked about the interview. wah, so sweet la kakak syuk kite ni. concern untuk adik dahliana. hahaha! same goes to Ain.

they were late to come down to fetch me at Cafeteria 1 eh? ape la merepek. I saw Lidiya, she tegur. bla bla bla. then i saw Haris. that fucking guy, buat terkejut aku. Tinggal daerah ang mo kio, abeh pilih simei. he invited me to smoke with him outside. so why not. then we talk talk. then Jinyan and Hanani reached, walked back to school and i saw Shafirul. standard ah, tengok muke aku je mintak rokok -.- asked about me and man amacam and all. he ask whether i still contacting with Mu'min -.- takde mase la aku nak contact orang yang kurang ajar. after that, went to Cafe 2 with Jinyan and Hanani. in that cafe i saw alot of budak Telok Kurau Sec. tak minat -.- and and! buat aku happy gile bile balik, aku nampak Ardilaaaaah! she looking good in her Nursing Uniform. went to her table and have a chit chat with her. and i saw Syafiqah my primary classmates. die tu so called paling hot ah dalam class kite dulu -.- i smiled to her, and she smiled back. terkejut amat. sebab dah lame tak nampak, then boleh terserempak lak kat canteen ite eh. adam came with Enting, Bellerina and their new friends. talk talk.

on that point of time, i called Fyye. boleh la kite jumpe kejap kan. sekali die message aku pakai number mak die -.- dah balik la die. after interview and all, off to Eastpoint Mall, meet Man there to get my Char Kuey and Burger :D then off home. so yeah, thats all. and later, hopefully there vacancy at Downtown East. as i getting fatter by staying home nowadays. and i have to wait for 30th Jan for the results. Insyallah. And Kepade Kee Keerah, i know you called. sorry saye tidak angkat. saye akan call awak a.s.ap :D Assalamualaikum..

" I know im fat.
there's no rights for you to fucking judge me."

2012-01-19T00:37:00.002+08:00

" We deserve the last chance. "

we gave each other one last chance. when ever we fight, we dont bring up whatever shits we did for last year. i cant lie to myself that i didnt love him anymore. i know that i typed on my previous post, that i've gave up. but Man was there when i nearly gave up on everything. giving high hopes on people, boys this boys that. Man was there when i was at my worst. and my ugliest. i cant think through on that particular week. after what Erikel fucking ditch me off, after what Mu'min replied to me. I've made my first two brothers lost their faith and trust in me, made Daddy cried, Isha last minute steady wanna go Jurong when i fucking reached Bedok and saw her with her fucking husband at tamp, and there's more. i swear i was like. fuck the world la ape la. Man cooled me down, days gone by, my love towards him getting bigger and bigger instead of hating him like what i typed on my previous post. after we gave each other last chance, promises. went to meet him, gave him a nice kiss and hug. ate prata with him, that morning i felt like so long already i never did that with him <3

things between me and Man went smoothly for now. alhamdulilah :D later i going to ite simei interview for my Beauty and Wellness course. Insyallah. gonna meet Jinyan and Hanani then go together with them. i've read this book, 100 kisah kehidupan. saw that book at Man's house. that book seriously touches my heart. woah, i almost cried on this one story. i wish i could type it all for you guys but aku pun tengah ngantok ni, wait long long la yer. this sunday Seri's nikahan. hmm. looks like i cant make it as im going for Johor with Daddy, Mummy, Julie and boi. am sure going there on Saturday. whatever it is, congrats Seri :D hmm about my two first brothers, we stayed in one roof, and you know what? the awkward moment is, when they at living room, im at bedroom. when they at bedroom, im at living room. sigh, when this gonna over sia. allahuakbal !assalamualaikum...

" when i type this, there's no word can descript what i feel. "

2012-01-13T00:36:00.004+08:00

" Cinta itu Mulia. Hanya Manusia tidak hargainya. "

so get this straight. what i learn about this line is, love it is wonderful. but when we human break hearts and all, and we all start all those fuck love la. love suck la. so yeah, blame it to who? :D im super bored now. i believe that my friends are sleeping now, due tomorrow school. and, i just came back from Ite CCK. went there to appeal. fuck shit, i saw my cousin there. tak tegur, later his mama nag at me why i didnt go school, yet. as his mama is my late mum's side. so yeah. they said to me Office skill, many of students also are fighting for it. they told me it's better for me to apply for april intake. cb eh? haiyo. okay, now i understand why Kee Keerah feels like vomitting when aboarding bus to school. hehe. am at sembawang now. and my phone is out of credit. maintain ah korang, bile prepaid low bising eh korang -.- been fb-ing and twitter-ing since just now. tomorrow, i mean later, im going to Raffles Place for interview at Starbucks. im not sure about working there, as Farisha told me there's vacancy. i dont care, if she like gonna story telling me all the way about Min. as long as i get $$$. ni ajak Mu'min lepak, pun reply Skola. ajak Jinyan keluar pun reply Skola. k la, i know la skola. i dont blame them, though. ni kalau aku dah start kerje, takmu lak baru nak carik aku. hahaha! siak je aku eh. and to fucking you, please get this straight. there's alot of girls played your heart, am i right? they broke your trust, am i right? till you are hard to believe whatever girls says now, right? please, put the blame on your past girlfriendS. im sick and tired of telling you the truth, and you start with " i got this feeling you lying to me " i mean, whats the point telling you lies? what i get in the end? like stupid right you? serious eh, put the blame on your past girlfriendS. i fucking dont understand why your past girlfriendS wanna to have you back and girls been chasing you now. like fuck sia. and now, when i spoke you said my attitude makin kerek. grow up please asshole! so yeah. back to my school. no more office skill in my list. pastry and baking, NEXT. dah nanti kueh raye, aku boleh buat. muahahaha! wanted to choose Hair Service, choose the hair scalp terapy. but then, i dont know whats stopping me eh. tskk. beauty and wellness, stopping me for choosing that because they said go to school must wear makeup? tau je la korang. bukannye aku pakai makeup sngt oi. haha. off to sleep now. assalamualaikum...

- if you want to be part of my future,

dont fucking judge me for my past.

2012-01-11T13:38:00.003+08:00

" Smoking weed is my faithful boyfriend since primary 5. "

Click and read. it's between me and Zico thru fb. saw him twice this week. takdir ke? HAHAH! lul -.- yesterday i saw him at afgan near tamp cc. he was standing right infront of me while im walking and i was otp with someone. he stares at me, with his kening down, make his eyes small. i look at him, macam kenal je dikni. macam kenal je dikni. been thinking who's the hell he is till i get home, and then, somehow aku terpikir pasal Kee Keerah siak. hahaha! aku tktau asal, then from there la i remember him. He mixed up me and Kee Keerah. he thought i staying at bedok. but i said to him, yang tinggal bedok is your best friend's ex la dey. hahahahahahhaah. got this one night i spent my night with Erikel at Tamp. saw Zico tumpang-ing his friend basikal, i think from his attire and his friend's of confirm dari takraw. and yeah, tak habis habis Zico cakap im still short -.-

then yesterday off to tamp afgan meeting my dad for mr teh tarik, i saw Qamarina inside bus. then aku duduk sebelah die, and here goes our conversation. she was my primary school classmate, pri 4. haha. aku masih ingat die, sebab die selalu bully aku dulu. siak tau dikni. kite dah kat habis bbl, baru nak tanye name aku ape? wth! -.-

then at tamp I saw Ifa and Tahar. woah, kawan BK. tegur them, bla bla bla then chiao. lepas tu nampak pulak si Norish Syafirah, kwn primary jugak. tegur, bla bla then chiao. such a small world la eh? tskk.

Message Jinyan, Kee Keerah, Fyye and also Ardilah. asking them how school and all. Jinyan said bored, Kee Keerah said menyeramkan. Fyye said okayokay baby, and Ardilah didnt reply me -.- so pikir pikir alek, SERAM NI. hahaha. so later im going off to sembawang, as my ezlink, my precious wallet are all there, and im here -.- sleep there, i guess. as tmr i getting my ite course results, mane tau dapat kat cck, then dari rumah tu terus boleh pergi je. beli uni and all. planning to meet Jinyan today but then, i have no enough cash la to go there. hmm. sorry Jinyan!

so, all i do now blog and tweet tweet. and si Haziq Hotstuff, tegur me said Syafiq misses me? -.- k, part tu aku lost kejap. aku tak percaye sia Haziq cakap gitu. cos aku dengan Syafiq dah lame sia tak contact, lepas kite break terus buat hal masing masing -.- and, when i asked Haziq questions thru Tweet, aku terpanggil die JI. hahaha! and he said dont start with me with the word JI la. sound minahrep matrep sak. are you one of them? what? pakai word JI terus minah and all uh? ni la orang close-minded.

and to you, im sorry to dissapoint you and rejected your patch back. like from begining i told you already, takmu harap kan aku pape. takmu tunggu aku. yes, i cant lie to myself that i already stop loving you, but please. i also have to think, need to be cure. had it enough already. there is once you ask me to leave you, cos you wanna live without me, nak hidup sorang, i did what you asked. now, i asked for that, can you let me please? if you think i can jaga you, there's plenty girls outside that can jaga you more then i do? hmm. Im sorry. thanks for calling me MAMA. long time already i never heard you call me that :/

- Allah love those who being patience in life.

2012-01-10T00:52:00.003+08:00

" Wanita adalah ciptaan Allah yang paling istemewa. "

that line, would always remind me whenever i almost give up. im dont know what im doing, i dont feel myself recently. taktau ah ji. girl, it's your relationship. you have to talk to him. you cant always ask me to do that, do this. yerla, bile kau sedih aku dengar cite kau. abeh kau suruh aku advise kat Min la, slow talk dengan Min la. tu takpe ah, abeh kalau sekali Min pun ade berbual belit jugak. kau nak aku buat pe sia? please eh. HELLO! -.-
i really hoped and prayed to Allah that this year i wanted the best for me. no more giving dad my bullshits, get brothers worried about me even they have their own problems, get small bro to cover up my shit. go out whenever i want. and go home whenever i want. i treat this home like a hotel. haiyo. so yeah, have i told you that aku dah serek dengan permainan lelaki? kalau sape sape nak dengan saye, pandai pandai awak la untuk ubati saye :D friends? some of them, already went for school yesterday, am so glad for them. pikir balik, bile la aku nye turn. kwangkwangkwang. and seriously, im so glad that Ardilah for getting Nursing course :D Congrats to Julie for getting quite good points for her O'levels. and for Aziq, yeah. i know it's hard for you. as Mummy gave high hopes on you. nevermind, that doesnt mean it's the end of your life right? keep it up! you can do it, Aziq. jia yuo! :D and dear Sulaiman, aku keluar dengan laki ni, laki tu, tak mestinye aku tak pikir pasal kau. k tipu ah aku kalau aku cakap aku dah tak sayang kau kan. because i had it enough. dah serek. all i want to say to you is, takmu harap kan aku pape uh, because nanti end up kau yang sakit hati. sebab aku pun pernah rase gitu. so yeah, biar sekarang kite message macam kawan je k? and you know what, kau pujuk aku sekarang it's way back different bile aku dengan kau dulu. that's sweet. :D

- because im not the girl i used to be. my past,
have waken me up for not giving high hopes
on people who dont care or toke me for granted.

2012-01-08T01:04:00.005+08:00

mark my fucking words.
i dont give high hopes on anyone no more. fuck her, fuck him,
fuck you, fuck everybody who got problem with that.
Ji, dont hate the player hate the fucking game!

well, about three days ago i came across to know Daniel, Bedok South sec, waiting for his O's results. Takraw, and football his sports. Bedok North where he lives. Rasul's friend. yeah, three days we get to know each other by messaging, and yesterday went to meet him. as usual ah, kalau orang dah best sangat message, ape lagi kan mintak jumpe. so, he came to pasir ris. fuck shit, sekali pandang muke Eli, mataey Fyye. he kept on saying his not handsome la, belo la ape la. but for me, i dont go for looks. nak kawan, kawan je la kan? -.- so, when i fetched him from bus stop, went to near by block lepak. from there, we kecoh rabak macam dah kenal lame. irritating enough, big mouth and wanna be matrep. after we meet, then he didnt so into messaging me? like jarang ah message sekarang. go ahead la. cos i dont give the fuck. i seems to know like almost everything about him in three days huh?

yesterday went to meet Erikel as the picture above. and fuck, the last time i meet him at Telok Kurau sec, he was fucking nerd, and like low-profile. didnt talk much with everybody back then i was like sec 1 or sec 2. and he was sec 4. sekarang die dah 20 years old eh? -.- went to tamp, lepak with him till 11 plus then go home. yeah, he fucking changed alot. and many girls after him now. cos he makin handsome ah katekan. tapi bagus la die tak amek korang. sebab die tau korang go for looks, stupid! asked him to take picture with me right after i meet him, but then he said later. later later, amek kau. dah balik baru teringat abang kite ni -.- meet again soon, pantat :D

Mu'min ajak Cun to Ubin for ton. fishing i guess? i didnt go, as step-mum here at home. i dont want to give ayah bad impression la kate kan :D oh yeah, dah sebut name Mu'min ni, happy belated birthday to him. im the first one who wished him thru phone as he said. i was like, fake ah kan, ade mataey, takkan mataey tak wish eh?

Today will be accompanying Ardilah to Bugis to buy beg. and afternoon go to hospital with Kee Keerah maybe? hmm. today's plan cock up and as for Abdillah Galar, he invited me to karaoke later at grandlink? amaciam ni cer? haiyo.

- I love the way you lie.

2012-01-03T22:02:00.005+08:00

PHOTOS OF GOING TO FISH & CO WITH KIRAH AND FAMILY.

2012-01-01T23:44:00.003+08:00

So i wanna to say thanks to my wishers thru phone, facebook and outside to those who saw me. thanks alot. :D gambar kat atas tu, paling cute wish aku dapat kat fb. macam siak je. bk `girl la, whooper la -.- wtf. first one is boi's friend and below is my tkss school mate. so, i wanna say again, thanks again to all who wishes me :D

well, i spent my day with Jinyan, Adam, Mark and Enting. had a awesome afternoon with them at Snetosa like seriously. after that, went to Bedok Simpang with my siblings. after that, went to karaoke. then went to Marine Parade, ton with Man. :D sorry to Shukor that i didnt go with you to Marina with Fadz. cos aku seriously malas nak gi town bile time countdown semue. no different? fireworks semue. and like i told ya, i dont take alcohol to enjoy :D same goes to Mu'min. he called me when i at sentosa. he ajak me go mane entah aku lupe with Isha.

this year, insyallah gonna be good with me. this year everything gonna be new i guess? whatever it is, Kirah when you see this, message me when wanna go USS! and i receive $100 for my present from Jamal :D

receive full of chocolates Candy Empire from Adam.

Pooh receive from Mark.

Pooh chain and a birthday card receive from Enting.

Last but not least, receive birthday card, wishing bottle and a set of wallet and a pen from Jinyan.

2011-12-29T21:54:00.007+08:00

BREAK NECKS. NOT HEARTS.

eh kak, sakit hati eh laki kau gatal dengan perempuan lain? share problems dengan perempuan lain? berbual dalam phone dengan perempuan lain? jumpe perempuan lain belakang kau? sakit hati, jealous? aww, kesian nye. padan muke kau! tu la aku rase bile kau contact dengan Man eh dulu? goodluck, Ji. Karma hits you already :D

Im back from meeting Min and Isha. went out at morning around 8 plus. train to Eunos. Isha invite me to go Tiong Bahru, nak serang ni perempuan, for gatal with min whatsoever. malas aku nak cite. but then! Min pulak larang Isha. so from there, dorang gaduh kat Eunos belakang 7-11 -.- aku ape lagi, earpieace ON then tido jap. dorang gaduh gaduh sampai kul 1 lebih, tak jadi gi Tiong Bahru, Min dapat saiko Isha la kononnye. buang mase aku je bangun siang siang -.- then off to Man's house, min beli rokok then off to Parkway, grab late breakfast and lunch. lapar, bro! lepas tu, bus-ed to grandlink. then we karaokeeeee. bla bla bla sent Isha home, then me and mumin balik seperate ways.

so, lum lagi gi USS. suppose to go today, but Isha ask me to follow her. kononnye takut ade fight or something. then change to tomorrow. baru dapat message ni, si Kee Keerah kite lak cakap kene gi kerje, sebab semue orang last, then celebrate. sad life aku. ): nak gi uss tak pergi pergi lagi. sob sob! anyway, birthday aku lagi twwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwooooooooooo days!!! tau la kan aku baru nak masuk sixteen, tapi takya kecoh pah. :D

you you you, yes of course you. dah lame jugak aku tak dapat hug dengan kiss kau. but, thanks for kasi aku semalam. after we patch back yesterday, aku happy gile la. but after kau bace hp msges aku, yeah aku tau kau bingit, tapi please uh, understanding uh. time tu tengah takde pape pe kite? salah ke aku msg die, salah ke care msg aku? doesnt mean aku lyn die gitu, aku suke die pe? dah aku cakap aku masih tunggu kau. dah aku cakap aku masih sayang kau. what more to make you trust my words? dah bace messages aku semue, then kau mintak lagi break? since aku nye message semue kau dah taknak layan, so i hope you read this. )':

2011-12-28T01:38:00.005+08:00

im back for proper post. yupyup, my three days at changi beach was awesome like fuck. friday night after work then off to changi, went with brother toke the last bus 109. reached there around 1 plus. invited Mu'min to come and ton with me actually, sebab first night takde pape, mendak la kan. abeh tunggu ni musibat sampai nak tertido tau. Cun dah standby kat dalam tent, dengan angin kuat, dah peluk beg Cun ready to tutup mate, sekali si samdol Mu'min called -.- then 5 plus, went to take taxi fetch Mu'min at Punggol mane entah. lepas tu, kasi die makan kejap. then yeah, jalan jalan. then he belanja me air teh tarik. fuuuh, steam thooor! k, this year's cousin gathering, aku tak dapat pulak eh presents? hahah! takpe, fucking fun. and guess what, one of these three days, Cun found $30 inside my TKSS short, but then tu part when Cun sudah tengah mandi laut, Cun nye malas nak naik, tuk letak dalam wallet, then Cun put back dalam pocket, sekali saaaap! hilaaang! hilang takpe la, ni hilang dalam laut eh! best ah sangat sangat -.-

monday, paitao kerje. sebab dah malas. then lagi pun baru alek dari changi, so, penat la, then badan lemah gile. lemah gile pun, tetap Cun keluar gi jumpe Mu'min jap kat rumah die. entah die nak lepak jap. so yeah, then went to Tamp one, meet Kirah. her nyai, mum, bro, Syuk, Sabariah and Nabilah eh? taktau. they invited me to come as they celebrating Kirah's mum's advance birthday. so, takkan Cun nak paitao? went to Fish & Co. had a awesome dinner with them. and Kee, nyai kau cute. hahaha. thanks to Syuk for the treat. after then, we jalan jalan around Tamp. i brought Rubi sliper. rubi siol. a'ah siol a'ah. ahahaha! stop it sia peragai. then home.

yesterday, wanted to teman Kirah to ITE CCK for interview. but i couldnt wake up early. penat oi. hahah. then, meet her after the interview. then slack around kat rumah die, went out with Syuk and her to meet Huda at Maybank at bedok inter or bedok central they called it? taktau ah. lepas tu kite gi Karaoke kat Chai Chee, sang till 9 plus, yupyup kite kecoh sey. sampai joget kat dalam bilik. wow, me loooike. after that, off to Mr Teh Tarik grab some food to filled our stomach. then home.

today, going to School later for paying leftovers school fees with Kirah. after that im not sure where we going. then Thursday going to USS with Kirah again. wah, kite betul nye spent time together gether sia babe. bukan kite je, tapi dengan syuk sekali, maklum la lame jugak tak nampak syuk. sisters from different mothers. hahahah! -.- wth. cute pe kite. oh yeah, first present receive is a dress from my brother Ali's gf. thanks alot. luckily simple dress eh. kalau festive nye, memang aku blank je nak pakai dress tu gi mane. haha. and birthday aku lagi tige hari je! sape dahh sedia kan present aku? sila telephone Fedex untuk delivery nya okay? address saya Pasir ris. tu je mampu ckp address saya :D:D:D so, countdown pi mana? oops, sorry. I am a teenager, but i dont need a sip of alcohol to enjoy eh. get this fucking line, in your head please! dont hate the player, hate the game la eh. i will be spending my birthday with my siblings. even my step siblings. karaoke at night, so that means im free for morning and afternoon, dates anyone? hehe.

and and you, yes you. aku happy when kau reply my messages yesterday, and aku happy that kau bilang aku yang kau rindu aku jugak. and what makes my night go tra la la la is, you asked for patch! yer, aku tak cakap yes, aku tak cakap no. after receive kau nye message pasal patch, straight aku cakap next year aku gi ite simei, the thing is kau boleh percaye kan aku ke tak? aku taknak nanti last minute kau peragai. hmm. so yeah, i give time to think about it okay? I still love you, though.

2011-12-20T16:11:00.005+08:00

I still love you, but i should let you move on. things to do today : live without you. laugh. and repeat live and laugh. happy 9 monthsery tak menjadi to you. hmm. i dont know if you still reading my blog using your boss's ipad. tskk. i wonder what are you doing now. how is your five days living without me? gerek? i think so, huh?

okay, have i told you guys i love december?! let me tell you my plans. tomorrow going to Kee's crib if i OFF. if i working at 4 or 5, will be there around 12 plus. takpe la kalau kejap pun. janji dapat chit chat dengan minah Kirah dengan Syuk. thursday shisha at jurong with cousin Taufiq at his friend's house. if aku malas, will be meeting Mu'min and Isha for karaoke. ni pun if kalau aku tak rase macam lalat. or if both aku tak suke, then will be meeting Rasul. tu pun kalau die tak ajak aku gi Macpherson eh. tempat bau BA-ENG! -.-

friday sat and sun will be having picnik with my late mum's side at east coast! makcik pakcik aku arwah ibu aku nye side, semue kaki lepak, kecoh semue. sayang mereka! oh yeah, quitting my job so soon. taking office skill at simei. kalau tak dapat, food and baverage operations will be my second choice and it's at choa chu kang, dont worry.

i wont be that stupid, cos if i were chosen to be there then i'll be sleeping at Sembawang. takpe, korang masih boleh calling calling for ajak keluar :D if both cant, then back to simei for beauty and wellness, i wanna learn to makeup and things about whatever la about girls. so, i pick these three. another seven takkan la aku nak list down tuk korang. pfft. k, off to work.

BACK TO BK -.- boring.

2011-12-19T21:52:00.002+08:00

Saturday, i went to Man's house. beli rokok and toke back my uss tickets. your mum didnt know about us yet is it, Man? nevermind. after that, i was late for my work at 5pm. 30 minute late. tu pun manager tak bising, nasib. work work work. got home around 11 plus. belum makan, belum mandi terus on fb kejap. tumblr and twitter. didnt know my makcik came to my house to ajak gi JB. daddy bising pasal next day kan kerje, but told him sekali sekale tak pergi. then dah start la die nye A to Z nye bising. but, i still go JB. hehe. makcik aku berbual kan. hekhek. so, tak mandi tak ape, siap then off to JB. was fun, gi shopping. due hari je gi. lepas tu alek kul 12 gitu, tido kat Jurong. so, today reached home around 1plus. i was late meeting Jinyan and Bellerina. hehe. cepat cepat gosok baju, siap.

Just back from taking results. and yeah, i got 8 points. i failed only Maths. seriously maths takde harapan langsong like i said on my previous post last time, i think? haha. if i off Wednesday, gonna be going to Bedok, to Kee's cribs. hopefully i off la eh. tskk. after taking results, Mu'min bendol B samdol call, suruh jumpe kat luar sekolah. He told me Isha nak jumpe. then okay, aku keluar, Isha pulak hug hug aku. i was like? nvm. terus kite duduk duduk kejap berbual, isap rokok kejap. they ajak me watch movie with them today, but hell no. takkan aku nak jadi lalat kan? and yeah, looking at them, I miss you, Sulaiman. ): their kissing, hugging, manje and all. yeah, i miss every moment with you.

Lepas dah duduk talk with them, terus pergi Paya Lebar makan Pastamania with Jinyan, Mark, Enting, Potai, Adam and Hanani. Adam Hanani and Potai went home. so we went to Cash Studio kat Bedok. sang till 8. then here i am. and alhamdulilah to my primary school friends all having good points except for some, and to Zarifah congrats, promotes to Sec5. Ardilah, ade harapan jugak masuk nursing. even my classmates now, except for some too. congrats y'all! :D Below, pictures when i met my girls.

2011-12-16T12:51:00.006+08:00

Because i can no longer smile like this. yup, you let me go. it hurts me. it hurts me alot when you said kau dah malas nak ber-mataey mataey. kau nak hidup sorang. terima kasih la tuk 8 bulan plus plus together. even though kite nye 9 months nak datang. bile aku receive message kau, aku teringat-ingat balik ape kau cakap tu, nak dengan aku tuk selame lame nye la. tu la ni la. i hold on it sia Man. this one week, aku tahu kau tak seberape message dengan aku, tu part aku dah bilang kat diri aku, yang im trying to be a good gf for you. but seems like another excuse you gave to me. i really hope that i could celebrate my birthday with you, but then i didnt thought that this gonna happen. yerla, bile aku tanye ex kau macam mane dapat number baru kau je, tu je kau nak kasi aku. hmm. takpe la, sudah takde pape pun kan. take good care of yourself. hmm. i gonna miss you, and us. aku takkan kacau or burban lagi dalam hidup kau. sekarang kau hal kau, aku hal aku. Aku sayaaang kau gile babs Man! i love you. selamat tinggal. )':
- kalau kite takde jodoh, layan peganti ku dengan se-ikhlas hati mu.

2011-12-15T22:36:00.004+08:00

im back from meeting them just now. it was like belo nye plan but i can say i had fun with them truck lots. member got herself a tattoo -.- kononnye big fuck la tuuu. and another member got herself a Iphone, lokek battery. hahah. Azurah and Ardilah <3

2011-12-14T00:21:00.002+08:00

Im off today till friday. woah, three days! happy happy. yesterday went to bf house before work. so, i dont know la if bf work or not. cos we in not good conditions. tengah gaduh, that moment Cun pikir and berharap bf kerje. so wont feel like awkward. but suddenly, sebelum masuk rumah je, nampak bf pulak. so, Cun pikir la " alamak nak buat pe eh? asal die tak kerje. " haha. then takpe, memandangkan Cun dah sampai rumah situ. nak buat pe lagi. so brought cigg. mak die pulak tanye tanye mane present die. lol. jap mak, tunggu gaji :D so yeah, dah beli Cun duduk duduk tengok tv, makan while bf masuk bilik tido. hehe. kononnye kite macam kucing dengan anjing. k, so aku off sampai friday, nari keluar dengan bf. like finally kite dah baik and like finally bf dah msg aku. and and dapat tau, ifa dengan tahar dah kene buang kerje sebab marah manager and selalu tak dtg kerje. aku dengar je, waliao. ni minah and matrep. tskk. takpe. k la, bye.

assalamualaikum...

2011-12-12T13:43:00.006+08:00

since i have time right now, so lets blog.

Friday.
I went to Pioneer with brother. wait before that, i was hungry. i wanted to buy Old Chang Kee. but bro said, there's ananas, kenyang and save alot of money too. well, i didnt expect my bro like so more into saving money. trip to there with bro, memang awesome. tapi, irritating tu, mesti ade eh. hehe. then toke bus to cousin's. yeah, reached their home like 10:45pm? ha ha. takpe, family tu mak bapak je tido siang. adik beradik tidak. lol. tu la adik aku cakap pat aku gitu. tskk. told taufiq to buy cigg, and he ask me to belanje him -.- $6 rokok pun takle mampu sedare aku ni. haiyo. so, i belanje him. first night on friday, was gerek. didnt slept whole night, till already like subuh kul 5 gitu. yet, bf tak message sangat dengan aku. pfft. i know he's tired. hmm. ):

Saturday.
we did nothing much, though. so on that day i was thinking about Swimming since we already here. abeh lagipun macam jarang gitu kite gi swimming kat jurong memandangkan pasal jauh. so why not? but, semue dah setuju nak pergi tapi Abang Wan kite pulak, nak keluar kejap pakai innai for Kak Soffia and Kak Ida. then Adli was there, naughty child, but yet cute. so, kalau gi swimming sape nak jage kan? then night, ade tulang. favouriteeeeeeeeeeee aku! so ramai ramai pergi bawah pergi makan. nampak pulak si Aput. lame kite tak nampak die. asyik busy keluar or kerje. tu je la kerje nye. we pujuk Aput to overnight as Sunday same thing kan dtg alek. lagi lagi, dah lame die tak lepak dengan sedare sedare. yup, and he changed his mind :D and saturday night was okay with Aput and Bob, semue tido siang la. because orang Johor tido sane jugak, i dont know their names. but, we didnt allow watch tv, play ps3 and talk, though. cos it will wake the Johor people. tskk. so yeah. slept around 3. tu pun bf aku macam nak taknak message, he send satu message ni where die dah sampai rumah, terus tido. didnt let me know. sumpah eh Man, tu message sakit kan hati aku.

Sunday.
where the ceremony starts. Abang Wan and Kak Soffia looking good in their wedding growns. :D so this is the day where long long cousins get to gathered, yang lame tak jumpe also. yeah, we Abdullah reputation was paling kecoh about the karaoke thinggy. haha. i sang Takkan Pisah by Eren. tu pun ade kendarat nye mat mintak number. sodep sangat la tu suare aku. hahah! k, kemas the block after 5pm, some gathered at home. and yeah, every hugs i get that day from my aunties, i hold my tears from falling, because each hugs i get from aunties, i really feel like im hugging my mum. i miss my mum.

so three days at Jurong, and the wedding thinggy, it's my late-mum side. And today, i have to work work work at 4pm, and i really hope that today counter could be Ifa please! and i gotten the USS tickets for two. cousin personally gave it to me one of these three days i forgot. i paid $100 only. discount la kononnye :D cos she work there. so, right now im thinking bf nak gi ke dengan aku? sedangkan die sibok kerje je? hmm. kalau betul die taknak gi, then no choice that i have to sell it. ya la, i brought that ticket to go with bf. kalau die taknak gi, i have nothing to say. but jual. hmm. aku rindu kau, bf. aku tak message kau for one day, kau pun taknak message aku ke? hmm. ):

2011-12-09T16:39:00.003+08:00

- takde pape la nak cakap, cume aku rindu kau, Nor Md Sulaiman B S. ):

2011-12-07T13:19:00.004+08:00

Ku Pinang Kau Dengan Bismillah.

work work work. suddenly after taking the course, i didnt see much Ifa, Haqim, Gilian, Alicia, Raziq and even Tahar. manager taknak tengok malay united ke? haha k lame. but seriously skrng macam jarang. wait, asal aku kesah sangat pasal dorang? trololol. i need to go to work today. but i having runs from Monday. Diarrhoea. i have no idea what i ate on Monday like seriously. my tommy are killing me. i lost my selere in my brother's maggie. even daddy's sardine. grr. so, this means i have a very long away from work. today till sunday. friday, sat and sunday gonna rewang at Jurong. it's my cousin's wedding. my late mum side. i miss papa smurf, too. it's been long time since i met him ): so morning today, i woke up and go see a doctor. doctor gave me two days mc and a cure for my tommy. i asked papa smurf, berak berak dalam english ape? hahaha. he said pick up his call, he didnt know how to spell, so he told me is Diarrhoea. hahaha. cute sia kite. satu taktau dalam eng ape, lagi satu taktau spell. wtf sia? aku kekek kejap bile kat clinic tadi. hehe. and and, happy birthday to papa smurf's mum. im so gonna get her pandan cake. haha. i've nothing to say right now. in fact, i cant focus. my tommy hurts me alot. im done here. bye. 24 more days :D I miss you papa smurf! ):

Assalamualaikum...

2011-12-03T16:24:00.002+08:00

Gambar lame please? ni pun jumpe kat blog Cun case kesah cite lame semue. k, afternoon people. Cun baru habis kerje. so, i got time to rest and blog for awhile. thursday was off, and friday i didnt attend work. as two days straight i met my papa smurf. oh yeah, spending time with him. went to Tamp mall, walk walk. makan makan. yupyup, i love the feeling whenever im with him :D work today was okay. nothing much, customer praise me that i look like chinese, philipine, my english perfect. kembang jap la liana ni :D and heard about there's a fight yesterday at Bk. wtf sia? k i didnt bothered to type it all as im so fucking tired and so lazy. one of these day, Farisha called me using Mu'min's number.

so, i thought if mumin have something to say, he will just sms right? but then called. so i pick up the phone, and Farisha was looking for me and she sounded so sad and i could say she crying too? and then, she told me everything. yup, oh gosh mumin. i didnt expect you did that, like seriously. i cant help much with Farisha, cos even papa smurf kind of jealous between me and min, cos when we sms, we used Names to call each other. then plus, like so close. so yeah, papa smurf, im sorry yeah? and i wondering, out of Farisha's friend, why she called me and share her problems to me eh? weird. i wont be so close to him anymore okay papa?

oh yes, December already? 3rd? so you guys know what is it? 28 more days to my birthday, folks. standby kan present okay? and and, this year, i gonna spent time on my birthday with my papa smurf :D:D:D thats all i wanna type. i guess, i should get some sleep as the weather is cold. hehe.

Assalamualaikum...

2011-11-29T19:47:00.002+08:00

Aku passed. aku passed. aku passed. so tak sia-sia aku duduk kat dalam bilik untuk tu berape jam, dengan penuh budak BK sebanyak 17 orang. So, yeah i passed my Food and Hygiene course :D practical die, seriously aku cock-up. agaknye nervous la tu? okay, me and brother was lost at first when we getting down from two stops away from Tai Seng Mrt. when we get down, we didnt even fucking saw this Ascoulting building ape merepek. So, decided la suruh si Gilian and Alica amek kite. dorang naik cab bukan nak ajak kite tau. hahaha! alaah, sekali sekale jadi taktau malu. taktau malu pun, tetap kite bayar balik okay. after one hour break, makan la india nye nasi. sodep la pulak eh? haha -.- lepas tu semue, train back home. kite adik beradik lapar gils. sebelum balik, kite sengar kejap ler Bk. suruh Tahar buat burger tuk kite dalam senyap senyap, kononnye eksyen ah yang ktie datang alek, nak tengok schedule. padehal, nak amek free burger dengan air. air pun suruh Ifa buat kan. kwangkwangkwang! dah amek burger terus kite ciao. then dah sampai rumah. aku update la kejap blog, sebab happy sangat aku passed. wah aku bilang korang, the feeling eh bile nak amek exam dorang tu, fuuhh! takle di-descript sia.

Assalamualaikum...

2011-11-28T15:48:00.004+08:00

Happy 17th birthday to my Best-est man friend of mine, Mark albert.

wah, aku tengok semue dah 17 ehk umur. aku je lambat. back here. im off today. and tomorrow i will be having food hygiene course. sent by bk. alaa, chicken ah. diploma mah? haha. k, seriously i've nothing to do right now and of course papa smurf busy working, and we fight fight fight due to yesterday or back to saturday? in fact, i forgot what day is, today -.- sigh. im totally bored bored bored. and i havent yet eaten from morning. grr. im fucking hungry. yesterday work was bored. cos im the only malay there. Ifa, Tahar, Raziq, Haqim and Amelia wasnt there. even though i fought with Ifa in our first met, because of she caught me staring at Tahar -.-

nevermind. atleast i got someone to talk with la at counter. pfft. minah tak minah, janji ade orang berbual dengan aku in malay. sebab ape, aku english pelat nak mamps sia. k takpe, yesterday pun, Ifa came to apologise to me for being unreasonable that time. She sound me la pasal gatal dengan Tahar -.- told her, if takle tgk takle berbual dengan mataey die, gi simpan kat rumah je. back to this, asyik philipine je counter. haiyo. but nevermind, atleast my bro have. and and people, Korean pop right? he said Hongkong pop -.- hahaha. that was the funniest thing i ever heard from his mouth yesterday. oh yeah, Mumin called me. ajak me out go karaoke this thursday with Awang? who? bawang? dont know la his name. im not sure with my schedule and im not sure whether i can go.

Since me and papa smurf tengah gaduh for past two days, and i really hope tonight he will be okay? i guess? tskk. insyallah. i miss you. ):

Assalamualaikum...

2011-11-25T00:02:00.002+08:00

After sending my brother Jamal to Tekong together with daddy, boi, Julie and Kak Malah. such a sweet girlfriend huh she. home around 2 plus, then siap all, went to his house again. fooling around and all, oh yeah, today we makan besar. makan Macdonald, called for delivery. hehe. :D then kite dah takde kerje, Cun pakai kan die lipstick and few minutes later, he said bibir die gatal gatal? hahaha. then he said again LIPSTICK ALLERGIC. hahahahah, hotak kau la b. he send me back home around 9 plus plus. after put my things, and toke Transformer cd for lend him then teman him to makan malam. lepas tu, alek. so here i am blog, while he watching transformer sampai lupe nak reply message aku -.- k amalkan selalu tau b. and thanks for the Macdonald. hehe :D k bye. Assalamualaikum...

2011-11-23T22:35:00.003+08:00

Okay, just get home meeting this boy of mine. ouh yeah, today i off from work and even tomorrow. dont know asal lame sangat dorang kasi tak kerje? agaknye ramai orang uh jage counter? oh well, taknak amek tau pun ah. orang dah kasi duduk rumah. takmu tanye banyak soalan kan? hehe. yesterday Cun buat Dining seey. senang jugak tau. cuci tray, clear table semue. senang, tapi letih and tired la. so, ade complaint pasal ade customer ni found glass inside Fish burger. then manager ask me to send the complaint letter and glass to Downtown East Bk nye outlet, kasi atasan Bk. chey, pakai word atasan ehk? takle angs kape. k back today. went to his house around 12 plus, ehem. orang kaye naik cab. Cheey! -.- duit pun bukan aku punye. :D lepak at his house for awhile, then off to Parkway main comp. dah tu, patah alek rumah die, makan then Kak gurl nye mataey, Abang zul send me home :D hilang sikit rindu aku terhadap kau, papa smurf ^^ and and, he gave me a ring! sending my brother Jamal to tenkong tomorrow for serving his nation. good luck bro! sayang kau.

Manager and Diploma Cert.

2011-11-17T22:40:00.003+08:00

Okay, aku betul nye tak happy dengan one and only manager aku ni. perempuan, philipine. seriously i dont like her fucking attitude. aku taktau lain nye manager aku boleh click, boleh senyum, ketawe, berbual dengan fun to work with tapi ni sial nye perempuan aku takle? why eh? grr. for your info ma'am -.- that customer asked for chicken, and you can asked razif about it. he heard it too. but then customer tu datang step buat kecoh die mintak beef? wth. abeh aku yang kene maki dari kau eh, ma'am? aku serious tak suke kau. asal uh? tskk! and diploma cert, karot marot! last year buudak sec 4 yang amek, ade baju pakai, topi datang dengan mak bapak. on that day jugak aku fyye dengan kirah start berangan pasal tak sabar nak pakai baju tu dengan topi macam orang graduate, kan korang? kite berangan amek gambar semue. sekali takde ceremony eh? betul nye siaaak! -.-

2011-11-13T23:14:00.002+08:00

With my people just now. of course i go work today. and and, dunie ni betul nye kecik! my primary school friend, Razif eh kerje same tempat dengan aku? Wow. aku datang kerje je, eh dikni. and for your info, die la dulu suke bully aku je bile dalam malay class -.- maklum la, primary school zaman belo. so today work, kecoh la sebab ade Razif. siak die, macam big boss suruh suruh orang ehk. tak kelaks tau cakap kat die. so, nari ade budak telok kurau sec, nampak aku. nampak tu takpe, irritating. order ni la terus cancel la. ape la -.- sape eh name die? lupe. ade lagi, Apoplexy. happy working die cakap -.- finish work around 1pm, then reach home.

siap-ing and do house work sikit sikit. then jumpe Jinyan dengan Bellerina kat tamp plantform lepas tu, jumpe yang lain kat Plaza Singapura. grab lunch at Fish Manhantten eh? taktau la name tu. lepas tu, went to Scape for karaoke. karaoke, me, enting and jinyan planned a surprise for Mark, beli cake swenses. Ice cream cake :D muak sey? takpe. tige tige matau. and Mark betul nye terkejut rabak. trololol. after karaoke, jalan jalan around Scape then Orchard. lepas tu, semue berpisah balik. so aku ni, post kejap pun jadi. sebab lepas ni aku nak tido. sumpah aku penat.

And and today whole trip, makan and karaoke everything Mark belanje, so cake kite matau la beli tuk birthday boi. ADVANCE birthday outing for him. agak agak la, takkan cake pun nak die beli kan? -.-

semalam lepak dengan Mu'min. Itu lagi satu, tibe tibe hilang. phone gi tanam eh kalau taknak reply? -.- rupenye member dah tukar number, old number bini die pegang. bini die lak bising. asal aku carik carik Min. lol? -.- and member dah upgraded to Iphone 4 eh, jangan main main. :P die nampak aku je, die tegur la pasal perut aku ni. asal makin kurus? i was like? biar betul sia dikni? kerje kat b.k tapi makin kurus? -.- and yup, even they said also, i mean Jinyan semue tadi. iyeke? ^^

Told Papa Smurf very important message aku. RINDU DIE. and aku dapat Kontol? terima kasih saje, b. ): takpe uh. aku betul betul rindu kau, aku ade banyak stories nak bilang kau lor. tapi now, aku tengok kau takde time je tuk aku? tskk. takpe, kau sibok kerje kan. hmm. and pasar malam kat pasir ris, opening sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooon! gyeah baby! ^^ char kuey please! muah chee please!

Assalamualaikum...

2011-11-11T12:56:00.007+08:00

why must you acting like this? i must try to understand that you are too busy working. and not enough time to reply just one message of mine. hmm. simply i cant. for your info, i just thought i wanna paitau work today. and visited you at home since you didnt message me since morning, thought that anything happen to you. so, i wanna check you out. when i called, you reached your work place already? hmm. so, takde beza uh aku kerje and aku tak kerje eh? I miss you, though. and i miss your perut. )':

2011-11-10T09:33:00.002+08:00

ya allah, kalau korang dah nampak aku tu, senyum or peace je k. tak perlu pekik. anjat girl girl you know. :D

2011-11-06T00:53:00.002+08:00

Susah sangat tau nak suruh die senyum kat camera -.- tapi bile die dah senyum, alahai cute la pulak kau ni kan? tskk. Okay, two three days working was okay. nervous la kate kan. and oh, i've made mistakes. sorry la kalau kasi money change salah. mathematic aku dah macam mane sey. haiyo. Korang guess la ape kerje aku tengah kerje, kat White Sands Shopping :D takpe, boleh berubah. Insyallah. So, yesterday after work, balik siap then gi rumah Papa Smurf aku ni, duduk duduk saje. sampai la kakak die semue datang. ribut, then 7 plus go to Bedok meet my Wak ni. took cab, ehem ehem. feeling jap jadi orang kaye naik cab. cheeyy! padehal duit cab makcik aku yang kasi -.- home. tengok Twilight, i introduce the movie to Papa Smurf, sebab die tak tengok cite tu. so, i asked him to watch. akhirnya sampai hujung cerita, dia pulak message saya, nyatekan yang certia itu best? haha. :D soo, Twilight Saga nak keluar. yes ah, aku nak tengok please! biar paranormal aku miss, jangan twilight saga sudah. and by the way, asal aku berbual pasal twilight? trololol. for me, okay pe? hehe. for me la, for you guys im not sure. okay la, gtg. nak sleep, nanti ade kerje.

Assalamualaikum...

2011-11-02T13:48:00.003+08:00

Hello hello hello.
Cun takde pape la nak update. Class bbq was okay. fun. kite kite je yang turun -.- lain tak. then Rashid cakap aku jiwe classmate dalam banyak banyak perempuan dalam class. whatever. By the way, dorang taknak book pit lagi jauh ke? O.o So december, dorang pun plan nak bukak chalet after dah buat Bbq due kali. so now nak rase chalet. hehe. k, believe it or not, Cun sudah dapat dah kerje, nari suppose to report for training. Tapi Cun bangun lambat ): shitsxsx la. takpetakpe. besok ade job baru! dekat je dengan rumah, White Sands Shopping. alhamdulilah. like finally, even though macam dah tak gune, dah November kan -.- takpetakpe.
and dudeimissyou, even though just yesterday i met you, papa smurf. ):

Assalamualaikum...

2011-10-28T12:53:00.002+08:00

goodbye for now, my dear. I love you ):
Class having bbq at Pasir ris tomorrow. I not sure about that -.-

2011-10-24T22:55:00.002+08:00

Update soon. Gambar dulu, jumpe kat post lame Cun :D

2011-10-21T13:45:00.001+08:00

Happy 7 monthsery, Sulaiman <3
I love you.

xoxo.

2011-10-19T19:22:00.003+08:00

DOWN WITH FLU.

mane kau bile aku perlukan kau?

2011-10-15T01:45:00.004+08:00

I will never forget my people. Thanks for the 4 years trip :D

2011-10-13T23:09:00.007+08:00

" if only Singapore have robot wrestling like Real Steel, i've already made one robot and for me to pour out all my sorrows. Even though i talk to a machine. "

Okay, sekarang link Cun sikit orang. lain semue dah tukar link or dah dead. so Cun link je la orang masih update blog or interesting yer. Hidup Cun sekarang okay je la. dah one week tak sekolah. If Man off, keluar with him. Min ajak keluar ke lepak ke, ikut. kalau takde plan, tido sembawang. tu je la i do this week. tunggu ni Explorekid call, tak call call -.- So, currently looking for job. rot at home macam budak sewel _|_

K sumpah Cun tengah otak blank la nak update ape. Family, okay biase je. kalau ade masalah pun, takkan Cun nak bilang cyber? privacy katekan. and dude, im sorry if i was the caused to you that daddy nags at you. was my first time i saw you shed in tears la brother! even you posted at facebook. seriously bersalah sak aku. hmm. and daddy, im sorry i lied to you. please please please dont compare me with HER!

Man pulak? due hari off, wed and thursday. Wed keluar tengok wayang, cite Real Steel. best la cite tu. so no comment. antare me and man, okay la. ade jugak gaduhan. but now, i really dont feel you. hmm. thursday went to sembawang. sebab ade my sisters. pasir ris boring la, laki je semue. all i wanted is you to fetch me from home and send me to sembawang. if only you tolak tepi your penat. i wouldnt get followed by pundek mane. ni bangla. sumpah sia, time tu aku dah terpikir ape nak jadi dengan aku. kimak tu pundek dari dalam bus sia ikut ikut tengok tengok. terpakse i stop at Yishun asked Daniel to teman me. thanks eh dude. buat susah je.

Friday ade graduation day. pakai ape eh? ouh lupe. Sekola karot, pakai uniform and tie. Peace xD a'ah siol a'ah. So, kat sembawang ni, Cun taktau nak keluar kul berape. dari tadi pikir pasal ni. fuck. and bini biniku gangster, ade la merepek nye. kelakar pun ade. so overall 50 50. random pe sia aku post ni -.-

My love, if only i can read your mind what you think about me, and if only i can feel your heart what you feel about me. hmm. I really miss you. I miss us. I miss EVERYTHING about you. come back to me when it's the old you, can? please? i really need you. ):

seriously i need someone to talk too. but who? IF ONLY MUM STILL ALIVE...

Forgive me, Allah. because i often forgotten about you. Please show me the way to face all the tests you gave me.

Assalamualaikum...

2011-10-07T13:41:00.005+08:00

I want the old you.
I want the old us.
Mane kau pergi, Sulaiman?
Ku merindu kan mu.

Janganlah kau menghilang tanpa kata. )':

2011-10-02T23:28:00.003+08:00

Still strong, even though this time it's hurt me alot <3
just one more time, one more time that bitch message you again to meet you up, im surely gonna find her. i dont know what keeps her hunting you down for meet ups and keep on messaging you. )": I know, both of you love each other. but all that is in the PAST sey? that time, yer yer cakap dah taknak kacau Man lagi la, ape la. then what is this sia? tsktsk! takpe la. forget about it. im having fun with you, since you having off from work. hehe. never failed to make me smile. but then, game kat depan kau, aku pun kau tak pandang eh? tsktsk. guys... haha. okay, i love you.
three more papers to gooo! baaaaik! tomorrow going to interview at east coast road. takle bilang kerje ape, nanti korang kpo. hehe. gonna work, keluar dengan Man. asyik die belanje aku je kan? so, dah nak kerje ni. sekali sekale je ler aku belanje hor? hehe. sweet tak mataey kau, b? trololol. but of course la not forgetting give some to my dad. cause he needs more then me? reasonable tak anak kau ni, Cik Dahlan? Oh well, what can i say. hehe. k la, bye! :D

Assalamualaikum...

2011-09-29T14:14:00.003+08:00

So, amacam semue? Entah la tibe tibe Cun mahu update nari. sebab blog dah berabok? dah boring kot? so, Cun update la sekali kali. wah, lame jugak Cun menghilang dari blog eh? sejak 21 Sept. k, pasal skola takde pape la. biase je. lagi satu week nak sekolah. tu pun Nlevel nye exam. then, lepas tu kene gi skola. tak ke macam merepek? Nlevel dah habis, but still korang have to turn up for school? KAROT. kawan pun semakin berubah. k, Cun tak pasal. Hal dorang, Hal cun, cantik? then pasal Man pulak, kite biase je. Ade la gaduhan antare kite pasal hal kecik or hal besar. tapi, kite manage to go thru. betul tak b? :D Cun tengok ade orang macam menghilangkan diri je? tsktsk. and by the way, Cun dah peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerm rambut! yippy. yes ah yes ah. A'ah siol a'ah. happy aku. hahah. whatevers. k dah bile bile cun update lagi. Cun janji!

2011-09-21T18:46:00.002+08:00

NOR MUHAMMAD SULAIMAN BIN SURIATI, HAPPY 6 MONTHSERY <3

xoxo :D

2011-09-12T23:37:00.002+08:00

at first, motive die nak dye colour merah terang. but, he dye to blonde first. jadi nye macam kat gambar.

he : eh lawa la colour. me loooike. eh takya uh dye merah. gini okay.
me : kau nak colour gini, kau jangan jalan dengan aku tau eh.
he : laa, tell me la why cannot. * buat muke kesian *
me : uh yerla, nanti orang panggil kau matrep, kau tak suke.

then he dye red. ni red aku nak tau dari dulu, tapi dikni dapat dye dulu. pfft! geram je aku.

2011-09-09T00:57:00.001+08:00

Okay, aku penat jalan with dorang. now aku nak mimpi indah.
and, semue bloggers dah upgraded pe gi tumblr? -.-

bye!

2011-09-05T17:11:00.001+08:00

gambar legend and im cute, though. no comment. peace! :D

2011-09-03T20:49:00.002+08:00

okay, so far, amacam semue raye? best? mine, boring. friday dengan saturday nari duduk rumah sey. so sodeeeh. semue busy kerje. tsk! takpe, janji besok jalan raye with my adik beradik. and by the way, macam first time gitu orang ajak aku gi ape tu Azzura eh? whatever la they called it. what makes you think that i go these kind of places, in the first place dude? -.- well, nothing much to do. next week, thursday keluar raya with classmate. friday, keluar with ex white sands pri, tu pun taktau uh betul ke tidak, then saturday, keluar with kawan ang mo kio. k dalam tige tige hari ni, i want thursday and saturday to double confirm eh people? :D peace. now, man's working pasar malam kat pasir ris, prepaid saye low. so, i cannot know whether he has eaten already or not. so, saye update ni pun untuk kill boredness saye. betul nye bowinnnng! bye la.

Assalamualaikum...

2011-09-02T20:20:00.002+08:00

he sending me home, waiting for bus 12 to come. we were bored while waiting, out of sudden he makes ugly faces. and here we go, i toke this without him knowing. hahs. cute kan ni anak? haha. teacher's day celebration was great. mak ai. tak sangke aku cakap great ehk? tsk tsk. so, thursday jalan raya with classmates. tapi taktau sape double confirm ikut. wanted to go sheesha with Alep and Mu'min today, but then Man didnt let me go. hais. takpe. dah lupekan pun. asked Man to save money, on 21th sep planning going to Seoul Garden. ehem ehem ^^ so, i've nothing to update. so, will update bile bile aku free hor? and happy september-ing people.

assalamualaikum...

2011-08-30T22:21:00.002+08:00

Yes, this year raya's they weared Jubah, i mean we weared jubah including me and Julie. how sachok they can be. enjoyed my first day, lots of eating, lots of going houses. now, i dont know whether to go school or not tomorrow. if didnt go, i wanna go perm. but, berape ah? sape sape tahu? tsk!

2011-08-29T22:55:00.003+08:00

Left hand and right hand.

I know confirm korang tanye tanye asal lain design kan? entah eh, saje je? right now, i dont care if the school allow or not. i dont give a damn. last buke today, with family makan same same. after buke, go straight to Snip Avenue, was there around 7:40pm tau? but then, semue cakap tutup la, full la. motive saye pergi sane, teman Jamal dye rambut, tapi, saye pun nak tengok pricing perm berape. but, dah bukak pintu, terus kene halau. sebab closing or full. merepek sey. kul 8 tutup. what the hell. okay la, bye. selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin :D

Assalamualaikum...

2011-08-28T21:15:00.003+08:00

Hati banyak sodeh la, sebab agaknye raye ni Cun cannot perm hair. tsk! mimpi aku tak jadi kenyataan. hmm. belum ade banyak rezeki kot? takpe, i need to be patient. so maybe lepas Nlevel, i go work, save money then can perm. insyallah. takkan nak korek duit daddy kan dari pocket. since baju raye also he asked us adik beradik to wear last year nye. so, this year totally budget sikit. well, budget budget pun rumah mau mesti nampak high-class. toilet bersih je, tengok ah sape cuci. haha! k tak perlu sia bilang. spent whole day today kemas rumah, penat oi puase beh kemas satu rumah macam nak rak. takde baju raye baru, takpe. takde kasut raye baru, takpe. but i just wanna perm :'( k bye nak bikin inai. :D and please eh nari aku nye last day turun bazaar. thanks to Malek and Zarifah made my day yesterday. and oh, not fogetting to those who PAITAO terima kasih saje yer? takpe, amalkan selalu. aku dah biase dah.

2011-08-26T09:33:00.005+08:00

AKU NAK TENGOK FINAL DESTINATION 5. tapi M18, cekik darah betul.

takpe, nak tengok the smurfs. :D

and my dear you know, i love you so much.
* tears rolling down my cheeks.
Akan ku bertahan cinta ini demi kesetiaan ku padamu.

2011-08-21T00:18:00.001+08:00

Happy 5th Monthsery! <3

2011-08-20T16:18:00.007+08:00

I leave everything behind.
I take it as Allah testing my patient.
And all these happen to me are His Test.
All i have to do now is to wait for Sulaiman to open his heart to spent time with me
and smile always, pretend that i am okay :D
I miss you, dear. ):

2011-08-13T00:23:00.000+08:00

received Little Pooh from Man, today. Thanks, love :D

2011-08-11T21:24:00.003+08:00

Girl, aku fucked up dengan kau la! kau bullshits!

2011-08-09T18:25:00.000+08:00

I JUST WANT TO BE WITH YOU RIGHT NOW. )':

2011-08-04T20:34:00.004+08:00

I miss you, boyfriend.
Take a leave, break fast with me, spent time with me, will you? ):

nampak orang makan, minum, Cun sabar.
Nampak rokok, bau rokok, astaufilrulahalazim! ya allah, kuat kan iman aku untuk rokok.
kwangkwangkwang. so, this sunday ade buke kat Bedok. baik! finally dapat jumpe makcik aku yang tersayang and rase masakkan die :D prelims sudah start. besok maths, mampos :/ Cun macam biase je, dah habis sekolah then balik. members semue plan nak gi sane la, gi situ la, cun tak minat. lagi lagi wallet no money. sebab kan puase, duduk rumah sembahyang kan lagi faedah. True? Cun macam biase je, sudah ke-empat puase ni, amacam semue? baik? alhamdulilah. okay, sebernanye Cun takde pape ah nak tulis kat blog, sebab boring pun ni. takde orang pat rumah. Nari cun mc dari terawih. penat luh. so, recently mulut orang mencabar kesabaran Cun ni. tsktsk! kalau korang tak tengok aku senang dengan Man, tak sah ehk? -.- irrits. planing this saturday buke luar, sape mau join? :D and sape eh nak ajak? LOL -.- k dah chelo. and and Happy birthday to Fyye :D

Assalamualaikum...

2011-07-31T00:17:00.004+08:00

WHEN YOU SMILE WITH THE KIDS, YOU CUTE :D

Was having a great time with my boy, and this fucking bitch ehk, sumpah nak rase makan nasi, pakai straw! so let me story telling dulu hor? Meet boyfriend at his cribs. then nothing much, slacking as usual. with his family. and sumpah b, kau cute bile kau dengan budak kecik semue! :D and and you all wanna know what, his perut makin besar. haha. terkeluar sey, takpe, tetap Bonzer aku k? sama sama naik, sama sama besar :D nari satu hari kite makan banyak. Man la suap aku. gile babi sey. satu pinggan takpe, ni due pinggan. tsk tsk. takpe, tak selalu manje dengan ni anak. asyik kerje je. niat kite nari, nak tengok cite Captain America, but ape uh yang stopping kite untuk tengok? entah ehk. lupe. and yeah, we was at White Sands Shopping Center, cari sliper untuk Man, then kite was fighting over ape entah. beh tibe tibe dikni cakap " haiz susah la nak berbual dengan orang skola tinggi " hahah. cute sia. what the hell. ni la orang, bile kalah point :D so, he starting to work at Bazaar Geylang. pape korang try out la burger die yer? so, to this bitch.

BITCH, YOU GETTING ON MY NERVES. PLEASE DONT MAKE ME GET DOWN TO MACPHERSON TO GET YOUR FUCKING ASS, PLEASE?

Ni aku ade message Puasa. dari kawan aku uh, so aku bace macam swee swee je? so aku cakap kat sini k? haha.

SELASA cari RABU nak tanya nampak KHAMIS sebab nak ingatkan JUMAAT bagitahu SABTU supaya tak lupa message kat AHAD yang ISNIN ni sudah PUASA :D selamat berpuase, people.

DENGDENG, AYAM PECIT, AIR KATIRAH, VADAII semue dah calling calling aku! :D

2011-07-29T20:40:00.002+08:00

it's friday. oh yeah oh yeah. nothing much to update actually, but im typing here just to kill time untill 9pm. cos there's my chinese drama series. hehe. school been okay. been giving out lots of work sheets. naik penat tau mate, asyik asyik paper je. so, it's like no comment. skola kan, what y'all expect. then home, not so good. cos in the mess right now, taktau bile nak kemas ni. tsk tsk. then i think me and daddy need communication ah. sebab sekarang jarang gile rabak tau kite berbual? kalau berbual pun, berbual yang basic things. macam dah makan ke belum. nak keluar ke mane. all those la. haiya. me and boyfriend, good. we've been fixing back all those shits we've been thru. trying to put the past behind. never bring up the past again. and yeah, i miss you. ): dont always work la b. have time for me too, please. when geylang bazaar open already, lagi satu bulan kite tak jumpe. how? hmm.

And girl, you full of bullshits and that bullshits of your's. Making me stronger, thank you.

Assalamualaikum...

2011-07-26T20:57:00.000+08:00

Maybe i'm a fool? )':

2011-07-24T23:13:00.006+08:00

Watch me bleed, is it satisfy you my dear? argh. )':

2011-07-23T10:09:00.005+08:00

HER HAIR, PLEASE?

I had a nice time spending my evening with you, my dear! :D

Just back home from meeting Man. in the morning, spent my time at geylang with daddy. pasar la deer. nak buat ape lagi kat geylang -.- bazaar nak bukak. yes ah yes ah! dengdeng! air katirah! vadai! So, dapat tau dari Man, Min said aku makin gemok eh? meh meh uh! peduli ape sey, min? -.- Man suap aku makan. Bapak aku lagi. and living in singapore doook. semue makanan mengemokkan. tak la semue makanan ehk. dah cakap kan, Cun nak exercise soon, tapi taktau bile. huahuahuak. but i know, SOON. k back to the story, get home around 10 plus, then cepat cepat letak barang semue kat dapur all, then off meet Man at his crib. Manje-ing with Mak die, shit la. Man nampak air mate aku. tsktsk. mane Cun gini macam. nothing much la tadi pat rumah, just spending my time with boyfriend. me loooveee! :D Thank you for today, baby. Thank you for sending me, meeting your mum. Atleast, there's mother's love after three years im craving for it. nothing much la, but i enjoyed my day. Monday he going to School to cancel off his name, then sign up for NS. mak die lak, nak jage aku bile die tengah NS :') how sweet he is. hmm. I wanna spent my time with you before you go in, can? I love you, my londeh boyy! :D

Assalamualaikum...

2011-07-21T00:00:00.004+08:00

Happy 4th monthsery, my dear :/

Im sorry for the pain that i've cause you all this while. Berape nye mentel aku kat luar, berape ramai kawan lelaki aku ade, malam sebelum aku tido, aku selalu pikir kan kau. I just don't want to lose you, twice. or like AGAIN. Please. Bulan yang ke-empat dengan kau sekarang, like a normal day for me. tengah gaduh kan. hmm. I just need you by my side, that's all. I want Us to be sweet couple, I want Us to be happiest couple in Singapore. Can? Takle cakap whole world uh, sebab itu dah fake sey. there's more sweet couple or happiest couple in this world kan. I just want you to treasure me like a Gold, understand me like you handle a Glass. When my phone rings, i really hope it comes from you. But then, it's from Mu'min, Jinyan and sometimes my dad. From there, i really really hope it comes from you. hmm. I dont know if you still remember today, 21th. hmm. Once again, Im sorry for what i have done. Please message me soon, my dear. I love You. ):

Puasa ke-tige tahun ini, tanpe Arwah Mak saye. Raye ke-tige tahun ini, tanpe Arwah Mak saye. Saye belum sempat nak belajar nak buat Kuih Muih, belum sempat nak belajar buat Ketupat. Ohh myy, semue sudah terlambat. Lagi berape hari je tengah nak puase, 11 days ehk? Cun taktau uh. cite Jus yang bilang. haha! So, Cun nye plan bulan puase ni, macam biase teraweh with Ardilah or Boi. and meanwhile, Cun plan nak masuk Ngaji uh. Nak kenal dengan huruf-huruf indah. Okay tak? bukan nak step baik, but... ade la cun nye pikiran. personal, cannot tell.

Dad recently seriously suke nah nak side orang lain dari Cun. asal ah? hmm. setakat Cun mintak topup 128 je? sebab Cun asyik asyik message je 24 jam beh cepat habis. Dari situ, ayah macam lain macam uh. taktau uh Cun. Haiyo. sorry daddy. boyfriend and daddy right now are mad at me :/

So semalam, Cun tak pergi sekolah. Pagi pagi Ayah kejut Cun suruh Cun teman kan die pergi Poly. Kesiaaan die, sakit. Dah check in check out, balik kejap. Lepas tu, naik motor pergi Geylang. Cun dengan Ayah, tengah beli barang dapur. Cun nye tangan penuh tau dengan plastic beg. beh ni makcik, tap tap shoulder Cun, Cun pulak pusing la. Makcik tu cakap, " Cik jarang nampak umur nak pergi pasar dengan bapaknye. sejuk perut mak nye yeer. " ayah terdengar, ayah senyum. Cun ape lagi, kembang ah. A'ah siol a'ah! hahaha! home around 3pm. then duduk rumah, kemas rumah and all, sejuk hati ayah katekan. then dah. my wednesday :D

Assalamualaikum...

2011-07-18T21:11:00.003+08:00

I just want you to understand me like how im trying to understand you, can?

I just want you not to give me empty words and promises, can? these two im hoping for. you said you dont want to give empty promises again, but yet you did it again and again. )':

It hurt so much, we kept on fighting. please please please, im tired to fight with you over a small thing. Please dont throw your tamper to me infront of your family and public please? you making me lose face, i know i cause you pain but control your tamper uh, no need to throw at me depan family kau or public seeey. pikir aku tak malu pe? hmm. i was happy in school, cos you said you sending me back. but... nevermind. Dude, aku sayang kau. Jangan buat aku gini uh please.

Pakai baju kurung, sari, cine nye baju on wednesday sebab Racial Harmony, tu takpe. ok baby, at last cikgu cakap lesson as per normal. tu principal takde otak ehk? skola aku ni, sekola agame pe sia? bodoh nye principal! jom ah ramai ramai pakai uniform. uniform tak uniform, janji aku taknak pakai baju kurung dah lawa lawa beh pecah, bawak beg then duduk dalam class pandang white board. SIAL NYE PRINCIPAL! pissed off sak aku. cb! Monday was a day to start off the week, yet this news i get. plus, my boyfriend are angry with me. good ah. Thanks monday? ): Sorry uh, Cun nari takde mood. Phone sunyi je, confirm Man tengah enjoy main pool. hmm. Call me, please. Bless me in 13 days in fasting month! ahhhh!

BAD MONDAAAY! ):

Assalamualaikum...

2011-07-17T11:05:00.009+08:00

IT'S FOR YOU :D

Be strong, Mu'min. I know you can. :D

2011-07-15T23:36:00.003+08:00

When i said that i feel awkward when you stared at me, means i want you to stare at me more in the future, even though i feel awkward, because from there i know your eyes are only for me no other girls. I thanked Allah for sending me you, my love. cheeey! Cun Melecun Meletops ehk jiwang? meh meh la. like of course. had a great time today with Man. I suke i suke i suke! after school, went to Parkway, topup all those then went to his home, settle down. Beh cuace lak sejuk. then tengok kakak die tido, macam shoik je? then me join in the fun. tido, while waiting for Man to reach home. and and, saye cium mak Man. biol ehk aku? hahah! alaa, cium pipi dengan dahi je. Tomorrow gonna date with him, and Min will be there too. Hmm, kacau daun! -.-so today school, okay baby. takde pape nak update. Takde pape nak update pun sebab, satu hari curik lagu la dari handphone orang semue. hehe. So, i was chosen to be model for Racial Harmony. Amacam, tak pakai kapa derr? hahaha. cher asked to wear that baju above. Amacam, okay tak? rase rase boleh menang? haha! lol -.- Okay dah. I cant wait for tomorrow! bye. Cun mau tido. Chelobetty.

Assalamualaikum...

2011-07-14T21:48:00.000+08:00

Dont look at white t-shirt. Itu Mu'min.

Dear, happy 16 birthdaaay to you. im sorry for not getting you a present. ): that makes me think that im not good la for you. tsktsk. I love you, you know that.

Things between us getting better after our patch back. Alhamdulilah, i love things like these. later on, he gonna fetch me from school then go to his house and sent me back home. you never been like this before you know. :D i dont know how to type it all, but seriously i feel good to have you back. macam takde word la nak describe hati ni rase ape. rase nye indah la. i promise you, i wont do my old mistakes again. I love you. Happy birthday to you, Md Sulaiman. k, wanna iron my uniform and pack my beg. had oral n level english, ah sial ! i dont want to tell ah my conversation how. like bullshits sak. dorang tanye A aku jawab Z. the feeling fucked up you know? tsktsk! k la. dah bye. aku update bile aku free.

Assalamualaikum...

2011-07-09T21:28:00.003+08:00

WE'RE BACK. THANKS FOR THE SECOND CHANCE. I LOVE YOU. :D
New Phoneeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Thanks daddy, I love you! :D

And brothers, stop it sia peragai ikut line KL Gangster. please eh? epic sia peragai. haiya -.- such a bore saturday. not saying that stayed at home on saturday are wasting my time, but such a boring day. new phone ah. new phone! happy gils sia aku. so now, nak letak lagu. boleh nanti dengar lagu bile on the way sekolah eh. and oh, i need to work out soon. getting fatter. argh, shit. yerla, eat alot. then somemore always eat maggie. gugur jugak rambut aku nanti. Transformer waiting for me to watch, sape sape belum tengok, nak tengok tak dengan Cun? ): adik beradik jual mahal. satu satu buat hal masing masing.

Assalamualaikum...

2011-07-08T12:27:00.003+08:00

Didnt go school today. stomach ache la. semalam ape je tau aku last makan? hmm. i need the time for being alone, too. so will be back uh on monday. semalam after school, smoking sessions with Mu'min and gang. after that, off to tamp, alone. then terserempak pulak dengan Irfan and Haziq. lame tak nampak due due badot ni. lepak jap dengan dorang then go home around 6, terserempak la dengan member lame aku ni. Azurah. wah wah wah, die tido kat pasir ris recently bukannye nak calling calling tau, oops. lupe, takde phone. alaaa, call rumah boleh pe. step lupe je kau pmpn?! alamaaak. so, lepak for awhile la with her. tanye khabar. amacam die tinggal kat bukit panjang and all. she with her boyfriend, Rashid. wah, lame pe korang together? nak masuk 4 tahun i think? k whatever. rase macam rindu eh dok, cite kite kite dulu? selalu korang bully aku. kacau aku. kire aku nerd uh antare korang kan? hahahahaha! omg, lame sia cite. rinduuu.

semalam kat class, me and kirah talking. she tell me.

Kirah : aku nak test kau, hundred dalam melayu ape?
ME : seratus.
Kirah : beh thousand?
ME : seribu.
Kirah : million?
ME : Jute la.
Kirah : * silents *
ME : kau step nak test aku, check check kau taktau. nak step test je. sepak kau.

bahan kekek la kawan aku sorang ni. tsktsk. beh beh Hafiz lagi, on Wednesday. suruh die tie kan tie, abeh die bau tie aku? aku macam uh okay. tanye die asal bau, then die cakap bau kau sedap dengan muke gay die? sial ah. ade eh classmate gini macam? sakit aku kot? cheeey! whatever sia Cun. gile pe. hahahahaha. okay, bile la aku nak ade handphone ni. takpe la, takde handphone, kadang kadang aman jugak dunie. takde orang ajak lepak, takde orang nak message message. duduk rumah saje. okayokay, besok saturday,

maybe off to johor. maybe je, belum tentu. beh going to bugis with auntie Rohana agaknye? taktau la eh. semue belum double confirm.

dimane kaki kau bawak kau, aku doakan agar kau selamat. berape jauh kau dengan aku, aku nak bilang, aku rindu kau. rindu mak dan kakak kau. maafkan aku, please. hati ini, macam takle hilangkan name kau. pikiran ni, takle lupekan kau. kembali pade aku! )':
Aku Dahliana Dahlan, hanye mau rasa tompang kasih dihati kau, SEKALI lagi.

Assalamualaikum...

2011-07-06T13:28:00.011+08:00

SEPARUH JIWAKU PERGI. ME. SAD LIFE. EX LOVE. SLEEPLESS NIGHT.

Second chance, can?
If you want this way, us to be friends,
aku takle pakse kau untuk cinte aku balik.
If you want this way, us to be like old times,
aku janji aku buat ape yang patut amek hati kau balik.
Can i call you, just to say I miss you so much, now?
)':

It's been three nights in the row, i havent have a good night sleep. Sleepless night. Eyes bugs getting bigger and blacker. shits. I woke up in the middle of the night just to think of you.

School recently was okay for me, same old shits nothing else. People seeing me wasnt myself lately in class. Was quiet, not much walking around in class and also talk. i need a phone, to call and text people. i need $60 plus, for 7-11 phone. i dont care about my plan to perm, buying $130 Birken stock sliper, bape g-shock, medium crumpler beg, watch transformer and harry potter coming up all these things, i want to put aside first. buy a phone at 7-11, first. i really need a phone to text you. i really miss your random " love you " message, goodnight wish, you manje me thru phone. nothing much i could do, just to wait for your return.

im sorry if i couldnt face you just now to buy burger. I have to ask Jinyan to buy for me and one for herself. But i was hiding myself, just to see yor face. and unexpectedly, setitek air mate jatuh. those cheek of yours, how i wish i could kiss it again like old times and same as your lips. how i wish i could play with your stomach again by poking it. to hear your voice again.

and yet yesterday, i have a hard time to sent your things back at your home. at first, i was thinking about your mother. what will she ask me about us? will she angry with me? but then, i called her, she sounded like she was sleeping. k fine, i glad about it. look thru the window, and i saw you and your sister. sleeping. banyak pikiran saat aku nampak kau. whatever it is, takkan aku nak letak kan barang kau kat luar? so dalam diam diam aku masuk, senyap senyap letak barang, and bagus uh kalau kau tak rase aku cium pipi kau dengan dahi kau for the last time.

Kalau kau betul betul nak lupekan aku, it's okay. aku tak pakse. love cant be force kan? kalau kau kasi aku peluang ke-due, insyallah i'll be the good girlfriend for you.

Subahanallah, I love you.

I know i being emotional recently, dear readers. jiwang miwang uh kate korang kan? next post, i will come back with a smile and myself. i promise. There fore, aku ade banyak stories nak sharing with korangs kat luar tu. wait for aku bile aku dah tenang kan pikiran and hati aku yer? tu pun korang nak, taknak korang nye seluar dalam. For now, only Music and ciggerate Viceroy my friend. bye uh. chelobetty. )':

Assalamualaikum...

2011-07-05T04:15:00.010+08:00

Dear beautiful Love,

Let me pour out what my heart feel. After seven months knowing you, i shared alot of memories with you. I mean it, ALOT. Including your mum and sister. Nothing much i could say after you said goodbye. I know, making you said goodbye to me it's my fault making you upset and heart broken. I'll pray for your happiness. My plan ahead is to celebrate your birthday, watch Transformer Dark of the Moon with you, break fast outside during fasting month, going raya with you, to taste your burger AGAIN, going to Universal Studio with you and your sister, wishing you 4th month but all these are down to drain. I've tried to stopped you making decision when you are angry or upset, but i failed. I failed for not teaching you patience, not letting your ego get over you. I've failed to save this relationship. Between me and you, i know you hurt the most. Where i wanna go without you? Tanpa Arah Tujuan. So today, will be my last day wearing watch and your spare phone. You know i love you, so much. Going to give back the things that you brought for me, i dont wish to meet your mum when our condition like this. And, please dont because of your mum, hati kau terpakse untuk nak berbaik dengan aku. Berat sungguh hati aku nak pulang kan barang barang kau, berat sungguh aku nak bawak kaki aku pergi rumah kau, aku dah takde bende dah nak simpan. Hanye kenangan kau dan aku. Aku akan setie menunggu kau di sini. Kepulangan kamu. Percintaan kita tak sampai kemana setakat dibibir saja. Kalau aku ade kedue peluang, untuk membaiki hati kau yang luka dan izin kan aku atur kan ape kesalahan aku terhadap kau untuk SEKALI lagi, i promise you i'll be the best girlfriend you ever had. Fuck bitch goddamn, i really fucking love you! ahhh. Goodbye.

Assalamualaikum...

2011-07-03T17:22:00.004+08:00

I love the way you look at me everytime before we kiss.
And also, i love the way you look at me everytime i made ugly faces.
I miss the time being with you. )':

Re-edit. Time 3:04am

" Girls like to keep things from boys and expect boys to know everything about girls. Why can't girls just tell what are their emotions now? "

Above i got it from facebook. Why i care? because Man and me are going thru this right now. For me, no secrets. but i dont know if i did not tell you things are secrets for you. Dear, read below. hope you understand because i really dont keep things from you, but instead you said i kept things from you when i didnt tell you anything.

- because girls have fragile emotion and they're weak. Boys are strong and brave apart from their ego. That's why, boys have higher expectation from the opposite sex including gays. For girls, they did not keep anything from boys. only boys think differently by girls keeping things from them, without they knowing.

so b, please please please dont get misunderstanding that i keeping things from you, and saying i like seeing you in pain. seriously. I love you, dude.

Madrasah today, was ok la. Ustazah asked us to wrote composition in malay. i was like, hello. aku ni sec4 n level, takde nak buat karagan sia. dah lame tak buat, beh nari kau suruh buat pulak eh. satu page takpe, ni suruh tulis 300 words eh? siak betul. sakit hati der. kalau english takpe, ni melayu. dah lame tak buat tau tak -.- Cun complain ah kat blog. since takde orang nak dengar hati Cun ni tengah marah! pfft. bye.

Assalamualaikum...

2011-07-01T23:10:00.005+08:00

Ok, happy birthday to her. habis kene tepung semue dari kite. tengok la ape jadi kat die. tiring day la nari. haiyo! sport carnival, karot marot. tak tipu tak bohong! merepek langsung. oh well, soccer and basketball due due kalah class A1. takpe, relay lagi. alamaaak, malu la Cun nak cite. belum start lari, dah jatuh. cute mute je Cun jatuh, then then ade je orang ketawe kan Cun. Takpe la, step dorang tak pernah jatuh je? dah jatuh takpe, beh kene maki rabak A to Z dari classmates Cun. Tak baik eh? dorang suppose to give Cun sokongan tau jadi Cun tak give up, ni terbalik. Well, what to do. Kee ade kasi sokong dari belakang. Nari kite step jiwe rapat la. kite jatuh terbalik tergolek, same same bangun. hahaha. kecoh tau kite due. kecoh pasal transformer, macam hot hit je? ticket cepat jual? hmm. tak dapat transformer takpe, Harry potter pun ade. :D:D:D K la, Cun penat. Nak tido, tapi Cun tunggu kan Man habis kerje. sweet tak? tau, takya cakap. Oops, die baru message. Die tengah on the way go Mustafa with Kak Gurl and Abang Zul.

It's been always you. I miss you, badly. Oh fuck, i just say it. I miss you, BADLY. ):

Assalamualaikum...

2011-06-29T21:43:00.002+08:00

Jam bape G-shock red $40, Birkens stock red $130.

I want these two, can? both red. haiya. bile la nak ade duit. and and korang mesti terpikir kan asal aku nak jam bape? sebab, tak ramai pakai bape. nak pakai bende ori je, so for me i want bape g-shock. for my own opinion uh. And by the way, if my things a fake for you. Sorry la eh yang beli barang ORIGINAL -.- why dont you buy for me ORIGINAL punye barang? since you telling me that im wearing or using fake stuff. mati taknak, hak aku la. Janji tak susah kan korang morang kat luar tu. so, back to my life story. nothing much actually. just that school just started. and then, Sulaiman already forgiven me :D thank you b. meet him twice. and i spent wonderful time with you. me loooike. k la, whatever. and you started work already, then back to our old jarang meet already. ): transformer soon, ok dear? and Rasuk, anyone? bye.

Assalamualaikum...

2011-06-26T23:53:00.005+08:00

No more secrets.
I promise.
Im sorry, my dear boyfriend. )':

Sometimes, it's hard to win over hot-tampered guy after what you did. How am i suppose win your heart back without failing? My texts, you did not want to reply. ( Im too scared to hear your angry voice, better not call ) Wanted to call your mum and sister, where are you and what are you doing right now. Fear much, they would be siding me, and nag you all the way. Because i dont like to see you suffering being nag by them just because of me. Hmm. so maybe, i've just have to give you sometimes to forget about it without me texting you, dear. But, it hurts me alot not to text you, knowing where you go, have you eaten and stuffs. You know me, dude. I dont like to drag the fight. It's my fault this time, please forgive me. Where ever your foot bring you to, you have my prayers.
Dear baby, hope you read this. )':

Fuck this flu. everything i eat, it seems like tasteless. Tarwah la gitu. cb, flu please go away. school starting tomorrow, and i dont want to bring lots of lots of tissues. If can, i wanna meet you now. hug you tightly, wispered to your ears " im sorry b " but, you just dont want to meet me, though.

Assalamualaikum...

2011-06-25T00:00:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulilah. Everything back to normal. I get my old sim card back, memory card too. Thought it was destroyed by you, Daddy. Using mummy's old phone. I love you. Thank you Allah :D Family makan gathering tomorrow at Botak John's? Where ever you are, baby, call me or message me as soon as possible. Wo Xiang Ni ): and and, before Raya, her hair please? I've kept my hair naturally long and it's time for me to perm not reborn. die die, gua mau perm ): new hair style this year's raya. school reopen on monday. fuck shit. busy schedule. come on, sheesha i havent yet, swimming too. what else? oh yeah, meeting primary school mates. goddamn! june so fucking short.

Assalamualaikum...

2011-06-24T00:52:00.003+08:00

I dont want anything. I just want you to be faithful with me, can you my dear?
Im tired fixing my heart back when it keep on breaking again and again and again.

2011-06-21T23:55:00.004+08:00

I dont care if the world gonne be fucking cruel to me.
I dont care whether Allah's testing my patience.
I dont care if my phone are broken into pieces.
It doesnt matters me if i did not texted my boyfriend for one whole day.
All i need is, some strenght to face my daddy's face again like normal times.
and we are back together, like normal times.
I can't stand the silent-ness in the house without his nags. without his shouting.
Please ah, he's the only men all i need right now. )':

Lots of love,
Your daughter.
Dahliana Dahlan.

Assalamualaikum...

2011-06-21T03:37:00.005+08:00

Should i go? After you breaking up my phone. breaking my heart. for letting me know you cant be a mum to me. but 2am plus, you woke up from your sleep just to check on me. you never been like this, waking up in the middle of your sleep just to check on me. oh my, my heart telling me to hold on while my brain telling me to go on.

Daddy, im so sorry for the sins i did to you. seriously, i cant promise i could be a good girl. Happy belated father's day, Dahlan Subaktar. i wanna to say sorry, but im the one who hardly to say sorry or thank you. hmm. Thank You, Allah. for sending this angle to me. thank you. (':

Assalamualaikum...

2011-06-21T00:00:00.002+08:00

2.1.0.6.1.1

Dear Sulaiman Suriati, it's been three months together. i know it's fast. Your past it's killing me. You told me to forget about it, but simply i cant. Why now, letting me know about your past? Bear with me, slowly i would forget about it okay? You may not be the guy that i expected like bringing me places where i never been to, or going out more often then slacking at your home only. but still, i love the time when im with you. that's all. i dont care, about the world telling me that i deserve better guy but yeah. im happy being with you. i am who i am when im with you. Im sorry if recently i being irritating, biol or belo to you. Because i cant help it just to win your attention. Wanted you to pampere me. But in the end, keadaan jadi panas. Till you get irritated, marah. You slapped me, jentik me, maki me. Wah, lain yang nak, lain yang jadi. Takpe la, i mintak maaf sangat sangat yer? Yes, i did always being patience with your attitude. im trying to get to know your personality. but mean while, sometimes i dont understand yourself. i dont know why. ok la, happy three monthsery, b. Sulaimain Suriati, i love you. Please dont always peragai and making me lose patience with you okay? :D

Assalamualaikum...

2011-06-17T19:49:00.004+08:00

- Somehow, Im always hungry for Mother's love.

L.I.F.E

It's hard for me to live on with six guys in the house, without letting them know how was my day is. How am i, where i wish to go, where i wanna spend my money off, when i grew up what i wanna be. or should i say, i want to cook same taste as mother's cooking. Really need a lady in the house where i can pour my feelings out. you think easy is it, living without your mother. everytime you go out, you felt like unsecured and unsafe. because there's no one to pray for your safety. Had a message from manager, she said i need to attend the interview. hmm, sadly. i didnt attend. because IF ah, lets say. Next monday i get to work, left one more week to school. So, it's better for me to study for my N first. Holiday, was okay. Most of the time, i spending alot of my time with Jamal and Boi to Lan shops. That's how my recently life is. Dahliana Dahlan, always craving for mother's love. and by the way, KL Gangster = Manyak good good. better go watch it, guys! ^^

L.O.V.E

- Mencintai kamu penuh rasa sabar, ku ikhlas untuk bertahan.
There's nothing to talk about him. like seriously. yeah, recently we do fight something stupid which we shouldnt open so big, or shouldnt even argue about. oh well, most of the time we fought, im the one who always have to surrender. like come on uh, i also have feelings sey. till when i need to hold on your bad tamper? your misunderstandings? your jealousy? yeah, he could be busy working. sometimes im at home, cari kawan yang boleh same same bohong, then baru boleh keluar. Paham? you all would understand la if you got girfy/boyf suke kongkong sampai taknak kite keluar. So, i lied to him like how many times already. hmm, i couldnt lie somemore sia. but still, Sulaiman Suriati, I love you. :D

Assalamualaikum...

2011-06-12T21:33:00.005+08:00

So far, life ok for me. am enjoying my holiday now. well, there's also scolding la from my brothers because i kept on going home late. or leave the house never clean or i never tell anyone. right now, im at sembawang. that's why i can update blog, tumblr and facebook. hehe. alhamdulilah, daddy and mummy safely returned from Umrah yesterday. amin. so now, im waiting for a call from Airport i dont know what cafe it is, because my auntie recommended to me. and also, waiting for a call from downtown east, explorer kid. waliao. lame pe sia dorang nak call. kate nak pakai orang sia. beh lambat call. by the time tunggu manager salah satu ni call aku, lagi due week je nak kerje. then dah start sekolah alek. tapi nasib la, due due ni weekly pay. haiyo. come on managers! i need money money and money. so now, what i wanna share? about my love? he's fine. some fights too, but ah nevermind la. i dont want to tell a story that im trying to forget. hmm. but seriously, your past it's fucking killing me dude! and and, people. y'all wanna know what. dalam diam diam g-shock bape aku die rosak kan, abeh senyap senyap buy new g-shock for me. and he brought one for himself too. aww, how sweeet you can be? same phone brand and model, and same g-shock same design but different colour. me loooike. kk, lame ass. till i update again. bye. takecare, readers. i may not update often but korang please la update kay? :D

Assalamualaikum...

2011-06-10T23:32:00.003+08:00

M.I.A

At Lan shop with Jamal and Boi :D

Be back, real soon.

I miss you, blogger!

Dear you, you found someone new :/

good for you.

and the message you sent to me that " im among the best you ever had. "

How sweet you are.

Last long.

2011-06-04T23:59:00.002+08:00

- Time : 12.00am.

At Marine Parade Lan shop right now with Boi, Min and dear.

So, let me update ok?

I still have my lovely family, amazing friends to make me happy even though not always they be there for me. but they still could make me happy. so, there's no point for me to be sad about what you did to me. yes, midnight tonight, i gonna see your fucking face. went to played pool with min and boi first. the moment you came, half of me are happy cos i get to see your face and half of me there's like a knife stabbed thru my heart. you came, you smile to boi. shake hands with min, and hack care with me. let me tell you something, i dont give the fuck. boi asking me why i never talk to you. and even he ask me why i dont even looked at your face. i dont give face to you anymore. but still, i gonna wait till you talk to me. say sorry for what have you done. so now, you playing pool with min, while im here blogging and boi blackshot-ing. so, i gonna to wait. even if it's take hours for you to talk to me. ali let me and boi go out this hour. you readers must be pelik right, how come i could go out late night. well, he even let us to go home around 3 :D this is why i love my ali so much. he understand us most. saw you busy messaging. are you messaging with sluts? hmm. right infront of me, you do shits. ):

2011-06-04T13:04:00.002+08:00

Laptop down, people.

Will update soon, i guess?

I miss you, boyfriend :/

Please come back.

2011-06-01T00:40:00.003+08:00

Dear daddy and mummy, alhamdulilah you guys gonna make it to Holy land. they gonna take off tomorrow. and i wont be coming school, like again. I'll wait for you guys to come back from Umrah okaay? Forgive me readers, they not going to Bali, but going to Umrah. So school wanted MC huh? fuck you ok? family matters pun nak mc. please ah principal. use your fucking brain eh. please eh. so today, i mean yesterday tuesday, after sending daddy to airport for free checking begs early in the morning, afternoon went to min's cribs. just lepak, shukor was there too. same old shit la. lepak je. then go grandlink played pool. Syam, Is and Raihan. kul 3 gitu, i move on to daerah ite Macpherson. Lepak with Rasul :D that kecik boy ah, i tell you. irritating much! so, home around 6 plus.

so two nights you've been missing? and enjoying messaging with 'Azurah' ok, no problem. this time i really wont menggalah ok.

2011-05-30T11:11:00.004+08:00

SATU NONOK TAK CUKUP KAN UNTUK KAU?

Maintain ah eh peragai kau gitu. :D _|_

2011-05-28T18:49:00.003+08:00

- It's all about you made my morning, go sha la la la.

letting you message with other girls, that does not mean that i dont care for you anymore or i dont love you anymore, dear. dont think that way please. it means, i trust you not to do stupid things, dear. i wanna show you, if i can trust you not to do stupid things, why cant you. i willing not to sleep a night, stay up just to talk things out with you. yeah, you may say im crazy, yup. i am crazy about you. not just stay up just to message you, but i willing to go out early in the morning, just to meet you. down to Eunos. it was a beautiful morning when you slack at Tembusu. the colour of the clouds. the wind.

i swear it's a beautiful morning, even you brought prata for us to eat breakfast. and you feed me. that moment, you wispered to my ear, said " b, love you. " what can i ask more? you even kissed my forehead. im proud posting here, just to tell my readers you made my day so sweet like candy. :D im sorry for making you not to sleep last night, i know you tired from work, had all those customer complains but you willing not to sleep also, and willing to meet me early in the morning. now, im not sure you ok at work? you didnt message me. dear, may we meet again, someday. soon. gonna miss you.

Daddy going to Bali. fuck damn. i wanna tag alooong please daddy! but too bad, they going to honeymoon. haiya. my leg, was burn. cos of the pipe motorcycle. it was black, and eew. it's hurt. till now, i still can rase the kepanasan. brothers and daddy thought that i been tompang-ing other guy's motor. please ah. how painful it is, for not trusting me. sakit sia hati. dah korang tak percaye, nak buat ape kan. hmm. and also, im only girl in the house. y'all should believe me siak. ): sodeh sodeh. so, today spent my afternoon sleeping. yupyup, sleepy lor. spent whole night sms-ing dear, and meet him around 6. yerla, kalau dah rindu. buat ape saje pun boleeeh janji dapat jumpe.

monday, alot of plans going on. ice skating with potai, jinyan, bellerina, adam, mark, jinyan and enting. im not sure if im going, out of cash right now. then, areed ajak me go sheesha and im sure dear wont be happy if i going out with boy -.- planning to meet ardilah i miss that bitch so much. Min ajak me go play pool with Syam and all. I dont know. too much plans la. but, see how la. me no know.

Assalamualaikum...

2011-05-28T03:36:00.003+08:00

eeessh. aku geli la please! -.-

talk things out. you said just a normal friends messaging? really? using I You I You language huh? so now, i wont think negative, just letting you message her. cos i trust you, you wont do stupid stuff right? i wanna prove to you that, if i can give you my trust, why cant you? true? k move on. yesterday, friday. went to bedok to my Wak Ni house. i miss my two aunties here. toke 17, then reached their home. ate, then off to pasir ris. siap siap. kesian my aunties wait for me so long eh? hehe. then went out went to yishun, then go to vivo. amacam? tak pakai pah pergi vivo dengan makcik? :D hak gua la siol. nothing else to update, and hey boyfriend. i fucking miss you. ):

Assalamualaikum...

2011-05-26T20:34:00.003+08:00

draw by me. my phone wallpaper. lol, havent finish. cos Kirah la disturb the artist want to draw. did just now during the camp. and by the way, sorry ah yang pikir boleh draw better than me -.- i dont give a damn. camp was ok, oops i mean, great. and yeah im right-brainded :D double confirm liao. chey, tu pun kene bilang. and you, yes you. you go message OVER with that girl till you cross the line, better watch out. cos, ade pergi ade balik okay. :D results are ok. two U's. which is maths ( standard uh ) and ebs. cher puji me that im too friendly in class, active plus drama queen and and im are responsible chairmain. ai seeeey bedaaaah! kembang pe aku tadi. :D:D:D ok, and Syawal. kau punye Daniel ehk? cute la! waaah. kk, stop it eh Cun. dah celobetty.

Assalamualaikum...

2011-05-24T20:41:00.002+08:00

- Mencintai kamu penuh rasa sabar. Aku ikhlas untuk bertahan.

2011-05-23T20:12:00.004+08:00

- happy girl with broken heart.

hati aku sodeh sodeeh pun ade jugak insan nak happykan aku. How sweet. people around me know that im not kind of a girl who show my sadness to everyone. just pretend to be happy je. lol, jiwang miyang pe aku? k la, never go school today. sore throat la biols. the doctor said i have to send to hospital? karot pe? haiyo. but luckily wasnt teruk sangat like last time until nanah terkeluar. eewww. dah taknak tukar tukar rokok lagi la! ): kesian perut aku. lapar ni. puase pagi siang malam. Sulaiman kalau dah kerje, lupe dunie, lupe bini. abeh die sanggup taknak kasi aku keluar dengan jantan? what the hell. kesian nye aku! takpe la, i know die sayang. by the way, b, rinduuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu la! ):

Assalamualaikum...

2011-05-22T05:23:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulilah, everything back to normal. Like i said, you got problem with work or at home tell me. you dont have to menghilangkan diri from me or you wanna tolak tepi about me. happy two months dear. :D sayang kau. ok, life been ok for me. went to swimming yesterday at tamp with brothers. and you all know what, my tekak are back in pain like last week i kena. omg! havent fully recover? haiyo. bad throat, pity stomach please. im hungry. i can't swallow. i can't talk. friday i went to grandlink, played comp for one hour with Jinyan, Mark, Potai and Enting. then join Syam, Iskandar, Epul and Shukor to play pool, waited for Min to come. because he working la with Burger, Burger was outside school, and i was running to go see his face just only a minute, but then his boss drive off. how cruel his boss can be? hmph. oh yeah, 2 hours waited for min. in the end, tak main pool -.- terserempak with Fiqal and friends. 5 plus, gerak to rumah Min with Shukor. then 7 plus go home. till i update again.

Assalamualaikum...

2011-05-18T12:09:00.004+08:00

Hello Boyfriend,

Aku rindu Kau sangat sangat. ):

Kau kat mane sekarang? Kembali kat aku please.

Kau nak menghilangkan diri, pergi la oi. Aku tak kuase lagi nak layan mood kau tuu. dah tak kuat nak simpan perasaan ini. Jangan sampai aku dapat tau yang kau ade perempuan baru taaau. Sayaaaang kau, Sulaiman Suriati. Jangan la kau sikse hati aku ni. Setiap kali aku pandang Shukor dengan Mu'min, itula saatnye aku pikirkan kau. Aku makan, aku pikirkan kau. Aku keluar, aku pikirkan kau. hmm. hati yang kau sakiti. Mate aku penat mengeluarkan air mate, tubuh aku nak peluk, tangan aku penat untul lock dan unlock phone aku tengok ade message tak, mulut aku mahu cite kan sape la sudi nak dengar, otak aku sudah pikir negative. haiyo. Ya allah, selamatkan la Sulaiman Suriati dari segala perbuatan Syaitan. Temukan aku dengan dia sekali lagi. Aku mohon!

Assalamualaikum...

2011-05-17T11:52:00.001+08:00

- Malam ini tak seindah malam kemarin saat kau text aku.

i dont know whats with you yesterday night. never message me or should i say, kau punye care message macam dah jelak dengan aku? whatever it is, it's not normally yourself. k la, daddy giving boi to work in June holiday. oh, kalau aku, die tak bagi. macam macam alasan. kalau adik aku ni, umur 14 ni daddy izin kan. tak ke, macam favouritism tuuuu? alamaaaaak! darah boiling ni. takpela, sukati kau la yah. orang tak kuase lagii. so, how holidays people? fun? boring? aku nye boring. sebab aku duduk rumah. tekak sakit siak. i can't even talk. i can't even swallow. amacam ni? haiyo. haaai tekak, bile la kau nak baik ni? nak sekolah tau ni besok. k sekarang, rase rase macam dah lame gitu tak pergi rumah Kee ehk? babe, am i still welcome? sejak kebelakang ni ade la jantan jantan sootood sikit. and yeah, asshole. mind your fucking business. what i do, my pasal. what i wear, my pasal. what i speak, my pasal. because it's my sin, and you are not there to clear all my sin fucker. dose sendiri, tanggung sendiri. kau takde hak nak judge aku! bye! eh salah.

Assalamualaikum...